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The goals I've set have been set with high standards. My main goal of these next few months is to get to independent living. I've said this a million times, but now that I have the means to get there, like a team to help me along the way.

The point of this essay is to give the readers a general idea about my goal and to let them know I plan on achieving it. Nothing can hold me back starting today. I'm breaking out of these chains and washing away the pain and heartache of yesterday and starting new. There's nothing that can hold me back.

1: My main way of getting to my goal is to keep my job. You need a job to maintain an apartment. Now I have a job and it's my job to keep working.  I can't slack off at work, I can't be lazy, I can't do anything to jeopardize the job.  I need to keep it.

And so, in order to do that I have to continue to be on time and to work hard and fast, but accurate, at work. That's what I have to do at work or I'll get fired and no longer have one.

2: So we now move onto bank accounts and credit union accounts. With a job you need to have a savings and checking account or just one or the other.  I will create one at Mountain America Credit Union. But what's a savings account without money put into it?

3: Now I need to save.  My program and judge requires me to have at least 1-2 thousand in savings and to see that I can maintain it without taking any out.  I need to be strict with my money and not spend.  If I need something I will budget. I will not take more than necessary and I will spend wisely and only on what I need, but occasionally indulge in something that'll make me happy.  

4: For the time being I will need to prioritize.  I have to prioritize getting my high school diploma and continuing on to college.  If I do that then I can show that I am able to stick with something and be committed to making something work.  If I show interest in college and paying my own tuition then they can see that I'm making an effort. 

5: In time I can rent my own apartment. I can continue to show them I can maintain a household amid stresses and issues. I will have to show that I can pay bills and eventually they will let me out of custody as well. The chances I will have to show them I can do it are endless.

Sometimes there will be struggles and bumps along the way, but if I try my hardest then they will put me into independent living and I will have another step in my life to look forward to.  I will start now with some of the goals listed above, but there's are many more things I could do.  Now it's my chance to make this work and I definitely will.  

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Not always, yet sometimes, I create from my own mind, New Years resolutions that I desire above all else to achieve. There have been resolutions to conquer addictions, resolutions to act more like Christ, and resolutions just to accomplish minuscule objects of little worth.

I used to be like you. Dead in my sins, a child of the prince of the powers of the air, a child of disobedience. Yet, no longer. Not that I don't sin, but I feel sorry for my sins. And I hope you feel sorry for yours.  Yet, this article is not about who loves Jesus more, or who wishes to go to heaven, yet, this is about a dream. I dream I've had for quite a while. A dream that I believe to be pure and upright, walking in holiness and self-sacrifice. What is my dream? I wish to become a pastor. I wish to lead others to Christ. Although this desire cannot be accomplished in a single year alone, there are starting points in which I will take to prepare myself in this year.

#1 Reading the Glorious Bible more often.

I feel like one who wishes to become closer to Christ should read His word on a regular basis. To feel His presence, one need only to pick the Holy Bible and read a few words. Our savior Christ Jesus is our only ticket to heaven. There is NO other way into paradise. So, in order to know what He desires of us, we must read His word.

#2 pray more.

Praying is our communion with the Lord our Messiah. Whoever denies the power of prayer has not fervently knelt down to pour his or her heart out to Christ. In order to become more in tune with those around me and the Holy Spirit, I need to kneel before my lord and pour out my soul to Him. What I ask for is my personal business.

#3 evangelize.

In order to gain more followers to my church and to learn how to help people for my future occupation, I need to witness to people. Now you may be asking, why am I not evangelizing to people in school. It's illegal to force beliefs on others without their permission. However, there have been a few attempts I've made, yet those stories don't matter. Yet, I do need to witness more. To witness, one must believe in Christ with all their heart and must have the strength and courage to preach to one who does not. 

#4 work within the church to help its needs.

In order to prepare myself in becoming a pastor, I must be able to work within the current church I attend. With the pastors guidance, I'll be able to help out throughout the congregation to promote its spirituality and well-being. Whatever the pastor wishes me to do, I need to do it.

#5 talk with the pastor about wishing to be a pastor.

And the last thing I need to accomplish, is to tell the pastor about my feelings. The strong calling  I've received must be shared with the pastor. He above all else will know what to do with my vocation. Yet, I've already spoken to him. So I guess this really isn't a goal. Tee hee.

So all in all, the two main things that'll help me become ready to achieve my dream are personal spiritual development and helping the church as a body in its whole. In order to accomplish such goals I'll need the help of our Savior who is the Lord Jesus Christ. I cannot, no one can, fulfill goals without the help of our Messiah. Jesus helps in all things. In order to go to heaven, all one needs to do is believe in Jesus Christ and repent. Now, what does repent mean? Does it mean to stop all sins? No. Repentance only means to recognize that you are a sinner and to pray to Jesus, asking Him to forgive you and to accept you into His fold. That's all it takes. I simple prayer, and simple faith. Thank you. I love you all.

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Something I really want to do and have wanted to for a while but I'm too lazy, is stop being lazy. It's getting pretty ridiculous. If something is hard, I'll usually try to find a way out of it. I need to stop being lazy and just do what I need to do. Being lazy isn't going to help at all. It's just going to make things worse. I need to work on not being lazy. It will help me out a lot.

I procrastinate with almost everything; school work, community service, and pretty much everything else I need to do. If I don't do them it's just going to cause more trouble and it's going to be more work than it would have been in the first place.

I don't want my work to be any harder than it has to be. So to help me, I've made a list of a few things to help me with my laziness.

#1 Consequential thinking. 

I've been doing this a lot more lately. If I think about what will happen if I do what I need to or if I don't, I will usually do it. The consequences of doing it are a lot better than if I don't.

#2 More positive thoughts.

Instead of thinking, " I'll do it tomorrow" or " it will be okay if I turn it in late" I can just think "if I do it now, I won't have to do it later." It will make things easier.

#3 Ask for help with things.

If it really is a hard thing to do, instead of not doing it, I can ask for help. It's a lot easier to do something when you have help. It won't seem as hard and I'll be more motivated to do it.

#4 don't look at it as a bad thing.

Instead of thinking about how bad it's going to be just look at the positives. Think about how it will be better if I just stop being lazy and do it.

I really need to stop being lazy. In the end, it will be a lot better for me to just do what I need to do. Hopefully this list will help me cure my laziness. I'll be a lot happier.

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Every New Years my goal is to work on my self esteem. Every day I tell myself that I am going to work on my self esteem, but I tend not to. I just let my words slide on by and not put any effort into fulfilling what I said I was going to do that day.Either I forget or just don't want to work on it.

 I want to have a better self esteem, I don't want to procrastinate on my self image anymore. I want to love myself to the fullest, more than I have ever loved anyone. Look in the mirror and seeing something beautiful, priceless and something special, rather than worthless and unloved. It's an amazing feeling to see yourself for the real and amazing you, working and trying and believing it's actually true after all that time of not knowing that it really was.

When ever I think I am ugly, worthless, unloved, and hated, I think about the times when I am at my lowest and how awful I am feeling in that moment and how shitty I felt. Then I realize that I don't want to live my life feeling like that all of that time. I WANT to love myself. I WANT to be happy with what I look like.

I am me and I cannot change that, nor do I want to.

I have a list of five simple steps to changing my self esteem to something better.

#1 Tell myself that I am beautiful every single day in the mirror with a smile on my face and true, real meaning behind it.

#2 Write in a journal, that is especially for my self esteem, every night, complimenting myself. Things that I am good at, how I did a good job at doing something. How I am a good friend, daughter, aunt, sister, cousin, or niece.

#3 Start following through with my words and stop telling myself and other people that I am going to do something and not do it. Stop procrastinating with something that is so valuable to me at this moment in my soon to be adult life.

#4 Accept people's compliments and not deny them when they are given to me.

Just say a simple thank you, and possibles compliment them back. But only if I actually think they look good and/or like something about them.

#5 Last but not least, be honest with myself, if I really think I look good, say it. It doesn't matter what other people say or think. They are no better than me if they are cruel and ignorant.

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My goal for 2015 is kind of strange. I'm having a kid and my goal is to become the father I wish my dad was. He walked out on my family at the age of 5. Why did I choose this goal? I think that it's going to make me grown up as a person. I want to be the best dad ever.  I don't know why people would leave their babies, sons, daughters, mothers. You'd have to be a really big dick if you leave the one child that looks up and calls you dad.

I've acted like a kid all of my life: smoking, drinking, lying, sneaking out, etc... I've done my wrong in my life. It's definitely time to turn things around. Time to make a change on this earth. Even if it's small—as small as a baby even.

Sometimes I wonder what kind of person I'll be if my dad stayed. There's no reason to ponder on it anymore. I have to focus on the now and these are my nows. 

#1. Get a job.

I already have a job right now, but I want enough money to get the necessities for my kid. Hopefully buy a place for me, my kid, and the girl I love right now. Making 8$ an hour won't be able to fulfill these dreams of mine. So that's why I put this. To get a job paying 20$ or more an hour to support my soon to be family.

#2. Money management.

This has little to do with my kid, but I want to have tons of money. By saving 75% of my money till I'm 30, that'll be an excruciatingly amount of money. Hopefully enough to get by in life for the rest of my life. Hopefully having enough for my kid too.

#3. Get some life lessons.

I want to teach my kid what would help him In the real world. I'm going to teach him/her what's it like to do hard work. I am a believer that hard work and dedication will pay off in the long run. I hope my kid picks that up and goes somewhere in life like I should've.

#4. Love.

Love is a key part about being a parent. Unconditional love. Just because you're being a little shit now doesn't mean I don't love you. I want my kid to recognize my love for him. I want to do to my kid what my mom did to me. Cause now when I look back on all the things my mom has done for me, she must've loved me.

#5. respect.

Once my kid comes to that age I'll show him respect and hopefully, If he isn't entitled, show him the respect that he deserves. I would like it if he once he's in those teenage years respect what I've done for him. I guess that ties a little bit with love.

These are the things I would like to do when this is all coming. I think that this is a good solid list on what I want to teach, show, and do when my kid comes around.

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My whole life I have put things to the side of my list or have just forgotten them there.Finishing them is to tiresome or just outrageous to accomplish but this is one of the simple one I have been  working on for quite some time now.It is still quite strange but I can explained the origin of the the thought that started the goal that many would be quaintly quite afraid to do.

It all started when I had just recently turned five. Big girl shoes were the in thing to do and anything of grownup type was cool.I was at the stage where learning to say no and doing everything by myself was the fun thing that needed to be done.Almost like a game of playing house. I wanted to be the mommy and all my dolls were my slave labor group of children that had to do outlandishly hard choirs. 

Until  one day life hit me in a whole different way and that was the day I had to accompany my family to a strange little church house.I was put into a dark mourning dress and taken out into a small field there was strange little flat stones everywhere that had words and pictures scribbled. Later I learned that this was my first funeral but at the time it was an adventure so great.People were sad but curiosity is all I felt at the time even when I placed my small rosy lips on the cheek of my cold  great grandmothers. Simply  I though she was asleep she had a faint smile on her face she just seemed peaceful. 

So of course when I went home my knees skinned and green from running around the little stones.I asked my mother what I had just went to she simple told me, a funeral. This is what sparked my idea of what I wanted to become. A mortician. 

#1 Well first of all I need to finish me high school education.It's a simple enough goal a truthfully I'm practically done with this goal. All that I need now is a few more credits and to try my best to pass each year with a 4.0. Let's just hope I can run away from the bad side of the high school. Alike to bullies and the horrible days when I got my head slammed into the lockers. So yes I think I have had my fill of high school lets move on.

2# Next the wonder foul world of college where people party and many just give up until suddenly a beer bottle strikes their head and they see how simple it truly is. I plan to go to this simple little place called job corps.Free bed,bath, and jobs.Kind of sounds like a homeless shelter, but truthfully this place is wonderful. They help you get a move on especially is you are of low income. I will take welding,business,and ulnar arts.A strange mixture but well worth my time.

3# After this ordeal I'm going to take what money I have saved up and enroll myself into a real collage to study the basics but most of all human anatomy and medical. I'll need both of These to become a trainee for a mortician. As well with the skills  that I will have gotten at job core I will be able to Hopefully open up my very own death house heh I mean morgue.

These are my long term goals to become what I want to become, and now all I can do is work and hope everything goes well.

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Goals have helped me out a lot in life so far. I use to be someone no one could stand! All  I cared about was sex and drugs. I was someone no one wants to be. With goals I have pulled myself out of that life and into a new way of living. At the moment..life's weird. I have no friends and my family's left me. So I'm pretty lonely. Ever since I've dropped my old friends I've been having a hard time getting new ones. Talking in general is heart stopping. I'm scared I'll get close to someone whom I could call family, than them just leave. I need some way to pull me out of this awkward funk! 

Goals:

#1. Openly be myself.

Maybe someone will like the new me. So be weird and happy about it! I want someone to except me for me. Not for who they want me to be.

#2. Be more social.

Sure it's scary to talk to people, but you won't make friends without talking. I want to be able to share feelings and pains with someone else. Maybe they'll help.

#3. Take the risk!

Like I've said, talking is scary. It is because people may laugh at me and turn me down and not want to except me. But I won't know who will except me till I try. So try!

#4. Learn to except myself.

No one is going to talk to me if I won't talk to me. If I show hate towards myself and disrespect myself, it will show that I can't love and respect them. Plus, it's just good to love your self. :) 

#5. Find a family..

This is my biggest goal. I don't want to have only friends to rely on. I want a place to go home to. I want to hug someone I could call Mom or Dad. I want a place to call home. This is my biggest goal ever! 

I know that once I reach my goals, I will be happier with myself. These are most important to me. Yes sobriety is very important. It's just not my biggest problem anymore. If I want a family, I have to follow through with these goals. Sure I'm scared, and yes it's hard. But if I made it this far, I could go farther!!! 

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#1 My first goal is to be able to solve the Rubik's cube in under 5 minutes. I already know how to solve it but I honestly think it would be better to know how to solve it in under 5 minutes. It would also be fun so that way I can rub it in everyone's faces when I can do it faster. 

#2 My second goal is to try and get strait A's in school. I have never gotten all A's in school before. If the get straight A's in school then my program will give me 25 dollars a month, so I am really trying to get that 25 dollars.

#3 My third goal is to try and be nicer to people. I've seen that I have been really rude to people lately. I don't want people to think that I am a rude person cuz I think that I am really nice so that is another goal.

#4 My fourth goal is to keep a healthy relationship with my girlfriend. In my past relationships it was always unhealthy. And I really love my girl so I am going to do whatever it takes to keep her, and keep our relationship healthy.

#5 My fifth goal is to try and get another with my parents better. I've noticed that I have been kinda pushing them away so I think that I need to get closer to them, cuz nothing is more important than family. 

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One of my long-term goals is to turn my artistic ability into a career one day. I actually have three ideas in mind. One, to become a tattoo artist and one day maybe own my own shop. Two, maybe I could start my own clothing line and draw out my designs. Three, I could become sketch artist for movie companies you know like concept art.

So I have always wanted to be a tattoo artist, I thought the whole idea of owning a tattoo parlor would be just so dope! Ever since I was young I have been inspired by artists on those tattoo shows, my favorite "Ink Master". Oh man how much I do love that show, it has been my biggest dream to win the title of Ink Master along with the 100'000 dollars. I know it takes a lot of grit to win and a lot of persistence! But most importantly it takes talent, a lot of artistic talent, which I possess.

Another dream of mine is to own my own clothing line, I know you can make hella bank and I know I would have a blast being my own boss. Basically it takes a lot of patience to own a business I know that because I have a few friends that have their own business. You don't really start off making bank, no you usually start out small. You start out small until your business starts booming and gets more popular.

Now it really was never one of my dreams to do concept art for movies but I thought it would be a pretty good career choice if I could go down that path. Plus it would for a fact make me a prodigious amount of money and I could learn a whole lot from it also. 

Now to sum up everything,my goals are both simple but at the same time colossal! I know what it takes to achieve them too, I just need to pursue my artistic talent and keep moving forward. I know I can do it I have what it takes to become whatever I want to be in life. Just takes grit and a "hustlers ambition" and I can live my dreams!

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Stay alive

I have a problem with feeling suicidal. I need to be less depressed because that's what leads me to being suicidal. I have to believe that I'm wanted and loved in this world. I also just need to believe that I do have a purpose in this world.

Be positive:

Don't listen to negative things that make me feel like Killing    myself and stay positive. For example, if I stay positive in all that I do, think, say, and listen to I will never feel like killing myself. 

Don't do stupid stuff:

Don't do stuff that will make people say or do stuff to me that make me feel like killing myself. For example, don't tell people I don't like them in a way that will make them mad.

Do obey:

If I obey then I will never feel like I'm not wanted or needed. I also wouldn't feel like there's no purpose in life. The only reason I bring this up is that's one of the main reasons I'm always depressed. One of those instances was just recently when someone in my life said that I make their kids feel uncomfortable, but the way they worded it made me feel like I was unwanted, unloved, and unneeded.

Do be smart:

If I'm smart in everything I do and say I won't get in trouble therefore staying alive. For example, if I don't do my homework, I won't get good grades. If I don't do my chores, I won't get to chill out with my friends that I don't have.

Do tell the truth:

If I tell the truth at all times I won't get in trouble therefore not feeling suicidal therefore not killing myself. For example, one time I didn't tell the truth and got in more trouble than if I would have told the truth in the first place. But then again, I've also got in trouble for telling the truth in the first place.

So, in order to stay alive, I will be positive by focusing on the good times in life, obey, and be smart. I will not do stupid stuff like what is mentioned up towards the top. I will tell the truth as often as possible without getting yelled at. 

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What I want to be better at by the end of 2015.

I am really bad at doing my home work because I procrastinate a lot. I say that i will do it later but I rarely do so it never gets done. I think if I sit down an hour after school and just do it I will be able to get through it. It may not stop me from procrastinating later but is will help me in that area. It is a small stepping stone to being 100% on task.

I also think that I should work on being consistent on the things that I do. I always end up falling out of a routine that I think is healthy. I think if I am very attentive to the way I slowly fall out of my routine I might be able to fix the problem. Either that or jus t have someone do it with me so I have a some motivation.

I need to work on my ability to stay focused. I am horrible at staying focused. It is an issue that needs to be worked on. I think if I just tried and worry on one thing at a time I think that it might be a little help me focus a little. I think it might be even better if I  had an award at the end of what ever I am doing but then again there wont always be an award at the end

I have realized lately that I am really bad at being articulate. I hd never actually thought about the way I talk "until just recently" of corse". It kind of annoys me. I kind of slur My words together. So the whole time I am talking I sound like I have a 2x4 in my mouth.

I have a bad habit of tapping my hands and feat all the time.I don't know why I do but I do.I have tried to get rid of this habit but I just can't.It doesn't bother just bother me either.Everybody hates it because after a while it gets a bit old.This is one of the things I hope to be done with by the end of 2015.

All in all I am ADHD and I want to get rid of it.I work hard and get distracted real easily and always need to be moving.By the end of 2015 I hope to have ride my self of my ADHD tendencies.You know what by the end of the end of the year I will have gotten better with my ADHD.

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Goals that are my Priority

 It's what it takes of how many steps will it take you to make that move everyday.

What is the motivation that's keeping us pumping our strength to push it to our limits.

I think we all have procrastinated before and I honestly think if I were to put all my hard work into this I should be a star by now I still have these dreams of mine and goals that I want to accomplish and share with you that I feel will better myself with in my mind body and spirit.

#1.Create music Often

I want to create music much more often cause I've been writing for a while I would say now and it's jus really fun and interesting to me it's one of my favorite hobbies. I need to create and want to create music to better myself as an image someone can look up to. To make it somewhere with my music will be such a blessing I would just know that I did work for it.

#2. Becoming a Musician 

For me to jus keep constant at being as creative as I can to show the world it's possible to imagine your dreams and turn them into reality.

#3. To stop being lazy

Waking up still tired annoys the crap out of me.

#4. Be a good influence 

To let loose something people rarely get to see in younger kids in the generation mixed with drugs.

#5.read books

I need to read more to educate my vocabulary and also my writing skills. 

#6. Change the world a day at a Time

By showing people how you can help make a different way to change. Also by looking through people by there hearts instead of there faces.