Friday, February 6, 2015

5 Goals

Every New Years my goal is to work on my self esteem. Every day I tell myself that I am going to work on my self esteem, but I tend not to. I just let my words slide on by and not put any effort into fulfilling what I said I was going to do that day.Either I forget or just don't want to work on it.

 I want to have a better self esteem, I don't want to procrastinate on my self image anymore. I want to love myself to the fullest, more than I have ever loved anyone. Look in the mirror and seeing something beautiful, priceless and something special, rather than worthless and unloved. It's an amazing feeling to see yourself for the real and amazing you, working and trying and believing it's actually true after all that time of not knowing that it really was.

When ever I think I am ugly, worthless, unloved, and hated, I think about the times when I am at my lowest and how awful I am feeling in that moment and how shitty I felt. Then I realize that I don't want to live my life feeling like that all of that time. I WANT to love myself. I WANT to be happy with what I look like.

I am me and I cannot change that, nor do I want to.

I have a list of five simple steps to changing my self esteem to something better.

#1 Tell myself that I am beautiful every single day in the mirror with a smile on my face and true, real meaning behind it.

#2 Write in a journal, that is especially for my self esteem, every night, complimenting myself. Things that I am good at, how I did a good job at doing something. How I am a good friend, daughter, aunt, sister, cousin, or niece.

#3 Start following through with my words and stop telling myself and other people that I am going to do something and not do it. Stop procrastinating with something that is so valuable to me at this moment in my soon to be adult life.

#4 Accept people's compliments and not deny them when they are given to me.
Just say a simple thank you, and possibles compliment them back. But only if I actually think they look good and/or like something about them.


#5 Last but not least, be honest with myself, if I really think I look good, say it. It doesn't matter what other people say or think. They are no better than me if they are cruel and ignorant.

8 comments:

Harley said...

These are all great goals.i think it would be good for you and your people. To .

Trenton said...

I really love these goals and the reasoning behind them. I to struggle with this thinking error. I admire the honesty part. This fits with all the goals. From reading this, I have been inspired to do this myself, I'd also like to love myself.

Samuel said...

That's an amazing list. Yet, it somehow feels incomplete. Ah, yes. Praying to your deity. Would that not expel any discontent with yourself? Would that not illuminate the darkness around you? Try it. It will help. Or, if you're an atheist, just pray to yourself. Isn't that what all atheists do? Yes. It is. So just pray to yourself or a deity. Have fun.

Sara said...

These goals are beautiful and worthy of praise. You made a genuine goal, but now you need to follow through on it. People say something and think another sometimes. So everyday I look in the mirror and think and then tell myself how beautiful, loved, worthy of praise and how kind I am. Then I follow trough. I don't just think it, I have to feel it and want to be happy and okay with myself.
So what I'm trying to say is that you have to tell yourself everyday, not always in a mirror but also in your mind.
Because Makayla you are ABSOLUTELY beautiful and a wonderful friend. You can do anothing you set your mind to,
Thank you for this essay, it'll inspire many,

Andrew said...

Makayla, I think you really elaborated on your goal. You did fantastic. But to start off, what about the people who can't bring themselves to look at their reflection. At that point it dosen't matter because they haven't seen themselves in years. But in the end you might be right about what you had said. It is a realistic goal.

Bryan said...

I think that your goals are really greet goals for you. My opinion is that you're more worried about what society thinks about you so that brings down your self esteem.
You should try and block your negativity in your mind and tell yourself you don't have to impress anyone.

Savon said...

These are all amazing goal. And all of these goals can be accomplished if you put your mind to it. But I honestly think that being honest with yourselves is the best one. People who can be honest with themselves go a long way. And I know that you can go a long way. Just put your mind to it, I know you have the potential to. Just keep ya head up.

Raymundo said...

These are great goals but your worried more
About what society thinks about you. I agree it's hard to stay committed to those goals people forgot quickly and work on them good goals.