If I Could Change the World

if I could change the world I'd get rid of #1.Drugs- specifically heroine, tobacco, alcohol, and marijuana, #2. Guns, #3. Pornography.

I would get rid of the above drugs because those were the drugs my mom was on while I was still inside of her, and that both her and my dad were addicted to that lead my mom to be in and out of jails, and the next two things...

I would get rid of guns, because my dad when addicted to the above drugs mainly heroine; armed robbed a bank, and got sent to prison for almost seven years.

I would get rid of pornography because of the nature of it, and the fact that in porn it is only about male dominance over women, demeaning females, and all sort of weird sexual perversions. Pornography is just a devilish means of a way for an individual to indulge and delve into their most sickest fantasies, and more than likely end up losing control.

AND IT TENDS TO BE QUITE ADDICTIVE!!! 

If I Could Change the World

If I could change the world I would get rid of airplanes, age of consent,and alcohol. I know that this list is weird but I have very good reasons.     

       The reason that I would get rid of airplanes is cause it's the way that my mom left me the first time. I remember my mom had packed her stuff in the middle of the night so that she could get out without having to deal with my tears. My grandma raced to the airport to try and catch her before she left,when we got there she was already gone.I have never really been able to block that all the way out.

I would get rid of the age of consent is because I lost the person I cared about most over this stupid law,the only guy that I ever really cared about he was my world,I loved him. He cared about me more than anything and I trusted him. But then he was placed in my program and they refused to let us be together because I was only thirteen and he was sixteen, then fourteen and seventeen. We broke the rules over and over again so that we could be together,after about a year of that they said that they were sending us both to group homes. They didn't that time, but a few times after that they sent him away and I haven't seen him since. It tore me apart . I will never let myself be that vulnerable again.He was my everything I would do anything to be with him again. I believed that hints would always be ok when I had him. I miss him so much we did everything for each other, he made me feel like I was irreplaceable and loved, but because of this stupid law I can't even know where he Is. This is why I would get rid of the age of consent law!

     Lat but not least I would sadly get rid of alcohol. I would get rid of alcohol because it has messed up me and my mother,it pulled her in when she was a teenager and it did the same thing to me and it sure did mess up things. Don't get me wrong I love having fun but I don't like having my family decide that I'm not worth it Because I would always come home late and drunk, practically a repeat of my mother and I don't want to follow in her footsteps.  

If I Could Change the World

If I could change the world I would get rid of fighting, all the violence, and all the drugs and cigarettes. I have my reasons why I would get rid of this stuff and I'm about to tell you about part of my life. So here you go this is why I would get rid of this stuff.

So why I would get rid of fighting is because I grew up around fighting. So I would get rid of it because I think that if I didn't grow up around it that I wouldn't be in Procter right now so

 that's why I would get rid of fighting. It would make most kids that are in Procter not be there.

Second I would get rid of all the violence because most people in jail wouldn't Be there because their in there for disorderly conduct. My brothers used to pick on me so I would get rid of that violence because it wouldn't have put all the stress on my mom. I grew up with it so I'm used to it but my mom doesn't need all the stress so that's why I would get rid of violence.

Last but not least I think this is the most important thing. I would get rid of weed and cigarettes. Why I would get rid of drugs is because people are messing up there life just smoked get when they could be out hanging with there friends not doing all the drugs.

Why I would get rid of cigarettes is because it makes people die faster and if they were never invented I probably would have my dad for many more years then what I got. I wouldn't have half the tickets I have. So I would get rid of cigarettes for good because now I'm always around it and I'm done with those.

So that is why would get rid of fighting, all the violence, all the drugs and cigarettes.  So this is my way. Of saying that if your doing any kind of drugs bulling people smaller than you to stop because I grew up with that and I went in to Procter. I don't wish this for anyone because it sucks.

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If I could change the world I would get rid of jelly, butter, and skim milk. 

One reason why I would get rid of jelly is because it makes peanut butter taste gross, and it looks like purple blood. It reminds me of my friend, she eat jelly with everything...well almost everything. I always thought jelly was a weird invention that was made by man kind, but it made my friend happy,so I'm glad it was made, but if you want real fruit eat real fruit they're so much better for you, jelly is just sugar no real fruits are in it, so eat real fruit.  

I would also get rid of butter, why? Because it's fattening for you. Another reason is because it has no flavor, it's bland. I think butter is gross and unnaturally made. I hate it when people use to much of it on food and in the food. Butter reminds me of my foster mom she uses it in and on everything she makes us, it's straight up freaking nasty, and I wish she would cut back a little. 

Another thing I would get rid of is skim milk, because it's also gross it makes me sick when people drink it. It's like watching someone eat liquid ice cream, but watered down...really watered down. Skim milk I think is a disgrace to milk, almost like a sin to milk. Skim milk should be gone off the face of the earth and ever be made again, and if anybody wants to drink it then they'll have to resort to regular milk or never drink milk again. Or if you want to drink milk, drink a little bit of milk and also drink some water to, about the same amount of both. That's something everybody can do your still getting milk but your also get the water you need at the same time too.

The reason why I would get rid of these things is because I would like to see people be a little healthier, and not use fatting subtenses in their food. Also to help prevent type 2 diabetes, and obesity, because so many families loss family members because of these things. Families should not loss family members to cancer.  

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If I could change the world I would get rid of rap, candy,and ice cream

Reasons why I would get rid of rap is because it's disrespectful to girls. I have been raised to show respect to other especially toward girls. I don't like rap because i feel like it say girls are only meant to be toys for pleasuring men. I thing rap is disgusting and we need to show others respect not only to girls.

I Would take get ride of candy because, I hate how I eat candy I get sick and I don't have to eat a lot, I don't like when it gets stuck between my teen and that there's some that have to much sugar on them.

I hate ice cream when I eat it my teeth hurt and the cold bothers me. I hate eating it my teach hurt all the time and I didn't think it was the ice cream so I went to the Dentist and they said I had thong wrong with my teeth. I hate how sensitive my teach are to ice cream. I hate the cold because when I eat to much I get a brain freeze and both my head and teach hurt. My step dad loves brain freezes when he has one he takes the biggest bate of ice cream he can while he has a brain freeze. I hate it because when I think it's gone I take a bite and it comes back And I just want to cry.  

If this make my world better I would do it in a heart beat and I wouldn't regret it for one second.

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   If I could get rid of three things it would be heartache, cheaters, and drug attics

People who are cheaters and I mean in relationships  it seems that teens these days only care about one thing well at least negus I'm not saying I'm not one but I have changes 

D they never think about how a girl feels when they cheat on her or just use her for there own personal gain Witch really pisses me off those girls go home and cry and for what some lousy relationship with a kid who doesn't think About anyone but himself But what he doesn't realize is her way to vent might be To cut 

The thing is parents don't listen to there kids so they don't no why there cutting because they never take the time to ask what's really happening. 

I know a boy all he wanted was his moms love he tried so hard it was months after head even locked up no letters no phone call not a happy bday he try's to hide behind that smile that he paints on everyday Hiding behind tear filled eyes his only escape is sleep and school hoping one day the mom he once new will finally come through on her end of the promise.

 He remembers  going to the office that day it was a Thursday  his counselor said your mom called He  couldn't believe it He thought he was joking around with him. He  was serious mom was happy to talk to him but He  new it was to good to be true.

The first thing He said is are you sober she didn't answer  but he didn't care at that point he wanted to see her so  the forgiving person he is his  counselor set up an appointment with her.  

It was obvious she was going to stand her son up you no the sad part is he actually Believed she changed but he new that was a long shot to believe in her if he only could change one thing it would be his mom actually following through with her promises those days were she isn't there how do I no she is ok I hate not knowing I believe moms need to be moms and not hurt there kids emotionally. I think that the only reason I'm still alive is because my dad has always been by my side. He has been there through thick and thin and has never left. So be glad you have someone there for you I thank god that I do.  The next Thursday she Showed Up but with the smell and look of cheap perfume and meth on her breath and the size and form of a twig the beautiful mom I once new was now a walking skeleton with skin she thinks I don't no but mom I no and I'm ashamed that you have become the women I never could of imagined. I hate this it's starting to tear me apart so I dig deep in my heart for the strength to forgive but I feel as if I cant Forgive her does that meaning a bad person dam drugs really have torn us apart she is not the same she looks like a skeleton with skin it's quit scary really

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If I could change the world I would get rid of darkness, get rid of scars, and I would get rid of girlfriends.

First of all I would get rid of darkness. Why? Because with darkness surrounding the world of someone who has no reason to live. It only makes them want to jump of that bridge and cause more pain to themselves one last time, to pull the trigger, drown themselves, drug themselves, or to starve to death. It is the source of all pain and it causes people to lose hope. Then you got the evil that lurks in dark that looks to control everything by fear. 

I'd then get rid of scars because they are physical reminders of what has happened to you. They remind people of all of the shit that they've been through for better or worse. It leaves the pain in their head and on their emotions. It glorifies that they've survived something that somebody else didn't even live through. It attracts unwanted attention from other people who don't know what has happened to you. You don't want to have to tell them what happened to you. It also makes me sad when I see people cutting them selves and the scars that are left behind the sadness is so great that I want to cry. Coming from me and the fact that I don't ever cry says a lot. Scars also make me get pissed off when I get them but not physical scars. It's the emotional scars that piss me off they make me want to get very, very, very violent, but I remind myself about what happened to me to get these scars and I get really sad. Some days I don't want to wake up, don't want to go on, don't want to see the light. It's so hard for me to deal with this life when I feel the scars inside, outside, and see them.

The final thing that I would get rid of is girlfriends/boyfriends. Some people cheat on them and break their hearts, then they go into depression and kill themselves. Some people ,who can't get girlfriends, who would be better off then those disease ridden "people" that they are with aren't cool enough or "hot" enough to go out with them. People are evil sometimes. I have seen people ruin their lives to be cool, popular, to get the "girl", the "boy", or to get "the money". 

In conclusion, I would say that these 3 things I would remove from the world. And yes I have a BIG BLACK CLOUD over my head. But I can't deny the truth. This is the truth, sometimes. Some days the truth about the world hits me in the face, but I learn to deal with it. But with these things gone I could have more faith in the human race and my self. If only the world was perfect and safe. If only people were not so desperate about their reputation being up to the standards of other people. 

P.S.- If you are having a hard time,and like metal/scream'o watch this music video, The Amity Affliction- "don't lean on me"

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If I could change the world I'd get rid of Death, meth, and the government . I know this sounds like a weird list, but I have my reasons.

first I'd get rid of death. When I was little I thought death was unreal I felt like I'd live forever, I found out that's not reality. Last June my mom passed away and  Three weeks later one of my best friends also passed away. When my mom passed away that's when it really hit me I was in proctor care at the time. Even though it's been over a year, I still blame myself for getting locked up and not being there for her through tough times. I miss her so much and honestly I can't wait to die so I can be with her and give her a hug again.

the second thing I would get rid of in the world is meth. It has caused my life chaos since The day I was born.  it has caused me too lose some of my truest homies, it has torn my family apart Since I can remember. it is a cheap high and Easily available anywhere you are but is highly addictive and tears your body up And It's one of those drugs you think is super bad until you do it then you okay the drug with yourself and that is a major problem with it.

            

the third thing I would get rid of is The government. I feel like the government making laws does make us more safe, but also takes away more and more of our freedom.  every law that gets passed Makes our world a little more crazy. I think the government is really messing up our country and I believe we as a country would be better off with no government and do everything's ourselves. 

If I Could Change the World

If I could change the world I'd get rid of Mc. Donald's, books, and the color red. I know this sounds like a weird list, but I have my reasons. This list means nothing to me I don't like any of these things and that's why I'd get rid of this stuff. I hate looking at these things It makes me mad.

First, I'd get rid of Mc. Donald's because their food I'd discussing. I have so many memories with my mom and sisters at a lot of Mc. Donald's. My mom would always take me and my sisters there to eat and so they could get a kids meal. I hate driving past them because then my thoughts automatically go back to my mom and my sisters. If I could I'd burn them all down because they make me have sad memories and I don't want the stress.

I would also get rid of books-for two reasons. One, I hate reading. I don't like taking up my time to read a book that I don't even like in the end. The second reason is cause every time I try to find a good book I NEVER Can!! I think that books are all stupid because they take a long time to read and I am a slow reader so therefore I don't like books at all. 

Finally I would get rid of the color red. I'm not part of a gang I just don't like the color. It reminds me of death. I don't like it because the last time it was my favorite color my sister died. I'm not saying that was the reason she died but it brings me horrible memories So I don't like red. The definition of red to me is, evil! I don't like it because when I see the color it Almost brings me to tears. My sister was little and we were close. Every time I see red I can only look at it for a few seconds before bursting into tears. The last picture we took was her wearing a red and black dress. 

So to make my world a lot better, I'd get rid of Mc. Donald's, books, and the color red. They all apply to me as past stuff and I feel they should stay there because then I wouldn't have to stress and hurt more than I already do.

If I Could Change the World

If I could change the world I'd get rid of Hate,cancer, and bullies. I know this might sounds crazy but I have my reasons. 

First I'd get rid of " Hate ". Usually when you hate someone you HATE them well.. I'm one of those kids that when someone or something gets to me I simply just brush it off and walk away. But hey don't get me wrong I do get annoyed and frustrated with people I just don't let it get to me. I've learned that it's not worth hating someone because if you keep thinking about that one person it's going to get you mad leading to you having a bad day. Just let it go and don't stress over it. 

Second I'd also get rid of cancer. I don't have it but I know people that are close to me that do and it honestly scares me. I don't know how it appears or why it even exist but all I know it that it's painful, stressful and causes to a lot of families to worry. So if cancer was a person and had a face I'd drop kick it in the face!  So if you have cancer or if you know anyone that does tell them that I'm against it. 

Lastly I'd get rid of bullies. When I was a little kid in 1st grade I rode the bus to school. There was a kid that was in 6th grade that would always pick on me by tripping me whenever I would pass him, he'd throw spit-wads at me and all that. Well one day I talked to my older brother and told me to stand up to him so that morning I got on the bus and the kid tripped me, him and his friend laugh. I got up and socked the kid in the face. The kid ended up with a bloody nose and me with a swollen hand, all I'm saying is that it might have been worth it for the first minute. Even though the kid was a bully to me I ended up being the bully, ever since that day I hated bullies and I promised to never become one!

All I want is this world to be a better place and I believe that if there were a lot more forgiving and less hate that maybe just maybe there'd be less cliques and more peace. I wished I could just snap my fingers and cancer Could disappear, if I could I would.  And Dude if you're a bully.. Just knock it off and stop, it doesn't make you cool it makes you look like a jerk. But beside that I just want everyone in the world happy. 

If I Could Change the World

If I could change this world I would take three simple steps.I,d get rid of hate,forgetfulness ,and weakness. these things may sound simple and strange but they have their reasons to be removed.A forgotten list that I hope some people understand.

First of all I,d more than love to remove hate. Something that I believe is to strong of a word of felling to be a part of this simple society. people use it to often to understand that you can't really hate Something or someone,without the Thought that it's most unruly nightmares and pains would come to life. Like saying I hate this person and would not think twice if he/she were to watch their family be raped and Murdered. I do know there is few people who do understand this. for they may have truly hated someone to the point. That one day something horrible truly did happen, and upon a bet I think they felt remorse.Posable even blamed them self for what happened to them.That is truly one of the worst pains you can feel.To know you wished upon someone Something that not even yourself could bear to happen to you or one of your loved one. Sometimes we forget that they have people who love them or would cry over a thing that bad were to happen. so to a far fetched extent hating someone hurts many innocent, happy people around them.

second I would purge the world of forgetfulness. People do deserve to forget, but running away from something like that never solves the problem. The skeletons you hide in the closet only await for something  to release them .So they can relentlessly torture You until you can lock them away again. Then a more simple thing that I think people deserve is to remember fully of the good things as the shadowed faces tend to cover so all you ever see is the bad in the memories you cherish. then sometimes you may just stop at the store and forget what was on your list.So you sit there for hours until your mind sorts threw the Mistreated data inside your head. Wouldn't it be nice to always be able to remember what has been forgotten. Be it only the lyrics to the song or a day the changed you internally forever. In someway I see people as wanting to know Thea's internal pages of their diaries.

finally I wish to trash  our hardest things to overcome.Our weaknesses. What if everyman was almost invincible  and the only thing that could end him was death.That we could walk about this world without a fear. Our heads held high because today they were always going to be a little better than yesterday. Instead of gradually getting weaker Every second. What if all we could do was grow and get smarter by the second?If there was no weakness maybe there be no war,maybe we could live together in simple harmony. So when we looked at our fellow man all we saw was what w good in their world.Not to Sit a niddy pick what they had done wrong their weaknesses.For once us all as humans could simple be just that human.

Thea's are some things I would change in the world measly  to see if man would prosper or fall. sadly this is only wishful thinking, but everyday I will picture the world becoming like this.Because no matter whom of what you are I believe everyone deserves to live the happiest life. Even that is a bit narcissistic for me to say. for I have hated, I have forgotten, and most of all I have Many weaknesses. We all do but it doesn't mean You yourself isn't perfect or simple beautiful in your own little ways. so live you life hold your head high. for there is always someone in this world who will love you even if you don't see or hear it.

                                          That person is you.

If I Could Change the World

If I could change the world I'd get rid of blood, wires, and stress. This sounds very weird but I have my reasons.  

First I would get rid of blood because I'm Mexican and in Mexico there's war against drugs and cartels and kidnapping. My family is not part of this madness but we are effected by it. By not going alone by yourself and not go outside in the dark and not be alone. Also being careful about who you talk to and not being In place you don't know. The reason I will get rid of blood is that I'm done seeing people being kill by drugs and cartels and being kidnaped 

Another thing is wires. Also I would get rid of this because all the people in Latin America trying to get a better future for their lives and children. Also they are trying to get away from the drugs and cartels killing their rivals and who ever saw them. I think this should stop, the drugs and violence and the kidnaping. I had a family member and another one that got kidnaped and my family almost got kidnaped too. I think people from Latin America should come to America because to escape the chaos In their environment.

Stress is one of the big one because everybody has it and you have to deal with it. My stress right now is getting everything done, like homework and credits and family stuff that comes from nowhere and Trying to get out of custody By doing my things that I have to. I try to cope with my  stress it sometimes works but the times it dose not I still try to be positive.

So to make my world better, I'd get rid of blood, wires, stress. Another thing is that all this three thing are almost the same. Like blood is being kill by cartels. Wires is running from the cartels. Stress is trying to get your kid to stay away from the cartels and drugs. That is why I would get rid of those things.

If I Could Change the World

     If I could change the world I would get rid of war, judgement, and Bad habits. First I will tell you that I do not hate these things with all my heart I would just make a few changes to our world with these elements. It's not to make a statement it is just to kind of explain why it would benefit me if these things were gone.

     First I will talk about war. I have sat in so many classes and learned about all the different wars. I know there are reasons why we went to war in the past; people wanted power, land, a pure race, etc. And what I keep hearing is we learn about this to learn from our mistakes. Why do we find it necessary to go into Iraq and Afghanistan and try to change the way they live. Let them live the way they want. Why are you fighting over land both just just spare the thousands of people that will die and just go halvsies. Come on people you are literally contradicting what you fighting for by fighting for what you WANT. You don't have to like Certain things just mind your own business.

     Next I want to talk about judgement. Too many times have I judged someone and then later find out how cool of a person they are. They end up being really cool people when you just thought they were some weird kid you saw in the halls. Judgement really makes me think about myself and how people see me before they meet me. It puts an impact on my relationships with people when I do become friends with them. I'm always thinking about what I thought the first time I even saw them. I also hate to hear people tell Me all these things they thought about me when they first laid eyes on me. It's just sort of off putting.

     Lastly I will talk about bad habits. Coming from a person who has a very addictive personality I have too many bad habits. This one kind of ties in to a lot of things I would just want to change about myself. I try something out once and just want to keep doing it. Cigarettes, which is horrible is probably the one that has affected me most. All it takes is just one try and you could be stuck doing something you hate. I do this with food, drugs, and even girls. I know it sounds weird but I honestly think bad habits shapes people to something they always want to change and that's no way to live.

If I Could Change the World

If I could change anything in the world, it'd be the school bell, the lights switch and the t.v.

First of all, the school bell.  In this school, Summit High School, there are people who I care about that I would be content never leaving, if the school bell (the day) rang later then we wouldn't have to go home. It could possibly make the other who feel the same way happy as well.  Another reason is that we need knowledge, it can help us grow and change.

Secondly I'd change the lights switch.  The world has so much hate and darkness.  All we'd have to do is flip the switch on a couple people and we could change the way millions of people look at things and possibly how they think.

Third of all I'd change the t.v.  I don't know how people can just sit and do nothing about the things that happen in the world.  The violence on t.v and the poverty and famine, the disease and cruelty.  Whether it be animals or humans, we should do something.  Everywhere in the world it is happening and all some people do is sit and watch it on t.v.  If we didn't have the t.v, would we be helping?

In this world there is enough strife and habitual actions that lead to violence and hate in general.  I love how some people think that they are alive to bring happiness and love to horrible situations, it makes life a bit better for us and some of the chaos is  lessened by these small things.  Caring for a sick child, adopting from foreign countries, sharing food, kindness in speech and actions, and just being a friend to others.

Actions speak louder than words. The ring of the bell, the flash of the t.v and the flip of a Light switch are just a few of the things we can change.  Take your time to help others and even if it's just a kind hello,  do it for the change of the world and yourself.

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If I could change the world I would get rid of guns, grades, and money.

The first thing on my list is guns. There are many reasons why, but the main one is to stop wars. If there were no guns, there probably wouldn't be wars. Wars just cause death, and people lose their family members. People shouldn't have to go through that.

The second thing I would get rid of is grades. Who needs teachers to tell them that they're good at something? I don't think there should be letter grades. It might make people with lower grades feel lower than the people with A's and B's and it isn't true. 

The last thing on my list is money. I think money is stupid. There are people in the world that have enough money to do whatever they want, and there are people that have very little or no money. If everybody had around the same amount of money, then I don't think it would be as bad. 

These are the three things that I would get rid of if I could change the world. In my opinion, all they do is cause trouble. I think the world would be a lot better off without them.

If I Could Change the World

If I could change the world, I would get rid of churches, bullets, and video games. Why, you ask? I'll tell you in the words to follow.

Churches are first on my hit list. How many times have we been forced to go into a building where we didn't belong, sit among people that didn't belong, and listen to words that didn't belong in our lives? It's like everyone thinks that to be a good person you have to dress up and parade among an endless mass of fake people who claim to be holy, but all have secrets so deep that satan would be chilled in his own skin. Finding God doesn't depend on the sermons held on Sunday, it depends on what we learn and feel.

Bullets are close behind. Why not guns? Because without bullets guns are just a useless object. Bullets turn them into power. Death, fear, and sadness have all exponentially increased since bullets were first used. Security, trust, and confidence have all exponentially decreased since their first usage. People now buy guns to defend the possible idea of an intrusive bullet. No one is safe, and there's no good reason for it.

Last, I would get rid of video games. I know that I'm not the only person who knows someone who wasted their life away on these colorful inventions. Watching the world pass by a person you care about while their face is glued to a TV screen, their hands to a controller, is hard. You feel powerless and worried about them. Not only known for sucking away people's lives, they're also infamous for changing the very way people think. Turning them unexpectedly to violence and suicide. The six or so hours a day becomes more very quickly.

I believe that were these items exposed of and never used again, we would see a happier world with a higher success rate and less pain. If only the world would realize the damage done by these objects. So there's why I would get rid of churches, bullets, and video games.

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If I could change the world I would get rid of every incurable illness (including chronic illnesses),  even and odd numbers, and locks. My reasons may sound strange, but I have evidence to back me up.

14 years. 14 years I have struggled with a variety of chronic illnesses. I see so many who suffer and I have empathy for them. I know what it's like To wake up in the morning and want to fall back asleep, but fail because the pain that fills your body is too much to allow you to sleep. Even with strong sleep medicines, no success is found. I understand the thoughts that come as you round another year, but it's not another year. You lose track of the last time you were pain free. All you know is your life with pain. It has become you. It defines you. If you let it.

Even and odd numbers. Why do we have them? Why not just numbers? I have to have the tv or radio volume on an even number. Before I go to sleep I have to see an even number. If I miss it, I have to wait until the next comes around, and if I miss that or accidentally look and see an odd number, I have to wait again. This process takes up a good amount of time, and that time gives my mind the freedom to race and think thoughts I'd rather not. The type of thoughts that keep you up even longer. The thoughts that control your dreams. The thoughts that become nightmares and cause you to wake up with blood beneath your nails because you were trapped in a dream and could only do the actions you were doing within the dream. Now you have scars that will never leave you all because of the wretched even and odd numbers!

Why have a lock? We humans always forget to lock our doors, safes, and anything that protects something of value. Even that which lies within a home, whether breathing or inanimate. What's the point of having a lock if you forget to lock the main door because it's hot inside and you need some fresh air. Why even have the lock in the first place if it has no part in protecting you from brutality, from a man you've never seen. A man that beats you after you get your brother out of the house until everything you hold dear goes black. Locks are pointless. Why have them if we forget to use them anyway.

Chronic illnesses, even and odd numbers, and locks are not necessary though it's not those things I really hate. I hate suffering, ptsd and nightmares, and traumatic experiences. But the cold truth is that we learn from all of these things. Each thing we suffer or go through, can be a stepping stone to making us an even greater person than we were the day before. IF we let them.

If I Could Change the World

If I could change the world, simply banishing any (irrational and symbolic) thing in the world, the three things I would get rid of The term 'dreads' , Mathews 4th period, and the entire 2013 sophomore year. Sounds strange but um.. Yes that would be very nice lol. 

If we could just vaporize the word 'Dreads', no idiots would ever even think to give themselves that word as a nickname. You wouldn't have to constantly be reminded of stupid guys with that name. Cocky, irritating, horrible, sweet, kind, stupid guys. Lol. Besides, the term is dreadlocks, not dreads. It's common sense right? We live in in America so speak some proper English. Many wouldn't sound so illiterate using that dumb word anyway. So again, that term should definitely go. 

Next on the hit list is Mathews 4th period English class. This is because, as about 99% of all Summit High relationships, if that is even what you would call it, they all end. The classroom you used to laugh, take pointless pictures, ignore the teacher ( Sorry Mathew lol) in is now just a reminder of what was and how clearly mentally slow you were for ever getting involved in that in the first place. You avoid where you sat, you randomly remember stupid jokes, that didn't even make sense I might add, and it's completely distracting. 

Lastly, I would get rid of the entire sophomore year. This is because, you wouldn't have even met of the complete buttholes that year right? Lol. I wouldn't have met some idiot eating pineapples out of a can without a spoon with nappy hair, then we wouldn't have became friends, fallen in 'love', I wouldn't have broken his heart, he wouldn't have turned into a heartless jerk and the whole thing could've been avoided. Just saying. 

My Favorite Mistake

Well my favorite mistake is cheating on my ex she was like my first love. I loved her so much and I treated her so badly and took her for granted she was so supportive of me. She was the queen of my world and now she gone because I was a bad boyfriend. Well we met at 15 practice she was a dama and I was a chambelon  I walked in and I fell I love she was so beautiful. She told me everything I was the only person who she told but her parents would hit her and I always was there to take her away from her problems. She had bruises and I saw them all but I was the one to make it better. We were gonna run away and live together and have a family I promised I would never hit her and I never did she saved my life and she was my life.

So we were together for about 3 months I used to be a soccer assistant and we went to her school. I went up to her and hugged her and kissed her like I always did than she asked me flat out are you cheating on me. I lied and said no than she believed me but I was I was flirting with girls left and right so me and her walked around. We were just playing soccer I would rap to her she always loved my music. Than I left her and the next day was our 4th and I went to her she asked me again are you cheating on me again I said no that's how it was . 

So my friend Aldo and I was walking to my friends house than I got a text it was my girl. Than she says it's over than I tell her no and she says she can't be with me no more. So what I do is tell her to call me so I can hear her say it. She does and tells me than I start crying I front of Aldo and than she asked my why am I crying. I told her because I loved her and she said I love you to but I can't be with you. She hangs up than that was my first time hippy flipping because I needed something to numb the pain so I turned to drugs.

  So basically what I'm trying to say is don't take the people you love for granted. The only people who do are damned be faithful to the person you love. Because you don't know what they will find out if your not. Look at me I became a drug addict and now I'm barley getting sober I learned from what I did I'm just telling you the truth before you find out yourself don't be selfish because you'll be alone and never have love. 

My Favorite Mistake

I know I'm not perfect but I guess nobody is. My favorite mistake wasn't the stealing part it was the part where I learned from my mistake. I was 14 and I always thought I was cool and did everything that my friends did. One day that all changed.

As usual I was a teen who wanted to be cool like everybody else. It was a summer day I was hanging out with one of my friends. Me and my best friend Selena were hanging out walking down the street and we wanted to go get a drink or something from the store down the street so we started walking towards the light. She asked me "have you ever stolen anything from the store?" I told her "no, I've never even done anything like that, my mom would kill me!" She asked me "well do you wanna do it?" I said "sure, but you can't make it obvious" she told me that shes done it a lot of times before and hasn't ever been caught.

I believed her and went along with it trying to be cool.  As we entered the store we went over to the soda machine and filled up a 42 oz. of Dr. Pepper. I turned and walked to the candy section and grabbed a snickers and some skittles. I watched as Selena walked to the other isle. She grabbed something but I couldn't quite make out what it was. She can back over to me and she opened my back pack and she stuck a box with 3 condoms inside my bag and zipped it up. As we walked to the cashier to pay for our soda she said "girls can I check your bag? You girls seemed sneaky about something over there." 

I said "well our parents are expecting us home soon so we just need to pay for our soda." She told us to follow her to the back office. We had no choice. We went to the back with her. She showed us the video cameras of us putting stuff in the bag and she called the cops. The cop came and said "well ladies what do we have here? I need you to pull everything out of your bag." I did as he said. He called our parents and told them to come get us and that we were being charged $300 dollar fine for shoplifting. My mom came to pick me up and she said to me "Raquel, you can't hang out with Selena anymore shes a bad influence on you and you now have to pay $300 dollars to the state for your consequence. Why would you do this?!" I just shook my head and said "I don't know."

From that day on I NEVER stole or planned on stealing again. I'd learned my lesson. Till this day I've not seen or talked to Selena because of that day. I lost a best friend and I can't take her back and don't plan on it. I feel that even though she was a good friend to me she wasn't a positive role model towards me I learned how to better my friends and pick the better influenced ones instead of the ones who got into trouble all the time.

My Favorite Mistake

I have always had trouble controlling my anger. I liked this girl, I really wanted to get to know her.  I asked her out and even though it was against her parents rules she went out with me.  I called her a name that no girl should be called.  To this day I still regret calling her this. 

It all started when I started to like a girl named MaggieTanner. One day, when I finally had the guts to ask Maggie out, but before I could, I was rejected by her telling me how my friend Dylan Lewis asked her out. I was mad at Dylan at first, but I got over it.  He was still my friend, and I was still his.  I still talked to Maggie about this other girl that I liked. Ali Petit. 

I was sad and depressed still about Maggie for awhile.  One day I felt a little better.  I was not as angry as I was so I asked out Ali. We were together for about four months.  I was so happy when I was with Ali, that I kind of forgot about Maggie. I was in love and I wanted to be with Ali. She was basically the only thing that I thought about. When I think about this I was really stupid to be so involved with one girl. 

One night I get a text from her asking me if we could be friends. I was mad at first, but I got over it. I said that I would like to be friends still, Maggie was talking to Ali and found out that Ali was using me to try to make Dylan jealous.  I was furious. When I think about it now I realize that I was doing trying to do the same thing, but it was with Maggie. All I thought about was myself. When my friends asked about Ali, I referred to her as The Bitch. I now think of myself as a jerk for doing the same thing as her. 

I was gone for two years and realized what empathy was. To this day I still feel bad about calling her that word above. I have not yet apologized to her, she might hate my guts, but I know that I deserve to be hated by her. I really did like her as I got to know her better. I learned that the words that come out of your mouth are words you can't take back. So you need to be careful so you don't say something that you might regret. 

My Favorite Mistake

My favorite mistake I ever made was the night that I got locked up. It has got to be the best thing that has ever happened to me because of all that was going on at my home last year. 

It was A cold winter night and I went out car hopping and went into a back yard to look at this really cool patio that somebody had built or had had put in for them and the person came out and threw me off his property and called the cops and let me go home. 

When I finally got home I had one hundred and twenty-eight dollars in my pocket. I was being stupid and took out the money i had stolen and counted it and while I was counting it the cops went around the back to where my window was and looked through it while I was counting the money I had stolen and then they went around to the front and knocked on my front door and I was stupid enough to open up the door and get my mom involved and my mom let them go and search my room where they found the money I had stolen. So they took me around to all the houses that it had taken money from and woke them up at like 2:30 in the morning and then took me to detention where I stayed for twenty one days.

   I was then put into O&A for 36 days. Then from there I went ARTEC West Boys A&D rehab center where I stayed for 6 months. I then moved on to proctor care which is where I am now.

So there is my favorite mistake I've ever made. Now if you ever want to rip apart your family like I did just follow my example, but if you want a good relationship with your family I would recommend not going down this path to misery and hell. So stay good and don't becomes a big turd for your family.

My Favorite Mistake

The simple ,strange stupidity,of not being quite in the right mind.How almost instantly you can change the course in you life.With a insignificant  mistake in action.In this case it includes bullies,a gas mask ,and a machete.I know that must sound horrid.A crime of human nature."CALM DOWN"!Let me tell you my tell.

I had only been in school for three weeks at this point.It was close to the end of the year,but that's a long story.Clouds lined the sky painting  puffy images in my side vision.The air smelled of fresh earth and thick smoke.There was no houses to be seen for the next eighteen miles.Thats ok, maybe even better.Almost an hour in this hell ride,did I get the first husky voice above the screaming pubescent children."HEY FREAK".I ignored it as I always did normally they stopped at that-not this time."hey there you know who you are FREAK"! I hated being called that out of all.(By God) call me anything ells anything but, that—putrid— word.The bus pulled up to the newly build building.It was a bland, sad looking building.It fit so well into this town filled with all of those small , boring  houses.Country folk they called themselves...more like idiots.I pealed myself out of the seat,only to be welcome by a sharp shoulder in the ribs.I clenched my teeth and stood back up exiting the bus last.

Only ten minutes till the bell rang.No time for breakfast just time to get to biology class.I briskly walked up the stair case the thin glass railing welcoming anyone who felt to mess with me.(Heh hope they like strawberry jam). Once I got to the top of the stairs I turned left to head to the class,yet again stopped in my tracks. Bradon stood there his arms cross his grin spread acrostic his face like a monkey.I tried to pass him but he only stepped  over to block me again.(shisea),"Hey.Brandon how are you"! He shifted his wait his smile fading. "I ain't to shur why you be asking such a stupid question F-R-E-A-K"!"I didn't know a dead girl could talk".I looked up angrily. "what do you mean by that,if I may ask"?

just to make this story a little shorter.Maybe I can spare you of this idiots wordplay.He threatens me
Explaining that his few buddies were going to get together and (RID ME).I think he meant to say get rid of me. alike to anyone you would not to greatly enjoy if someone threatened you like this.So I went home with a deviously  violent plan against them.I got home put on a mask packed my machete and slid on my trench.This is how that went.

I played a simple tune in my head,almost humming.My mask secure to my face my hands balled up in fist.What people didn't see is that I was smiling.I entered the lunchroom walked around and headed to the stairs I knew were they would be.I walked up the stairs brimming,slowly calmly in a way.Sadly I was stopped. Right before I reached their group,I was pulled to the side and asked to remove the mask.I denied told him what had happened. As usual got no help so I walked out and never came back.I Walked eighteen miles to my friends house,in the rain.After that I veered over the edge.

I think of this now,everything that happened led to this day and If I could have stopped any moment of that day. I would have walked home instead.I would have taken of that mask off and I would have fallen asleep. Alowing my dreams to ones more erase that day,as if it never happened.

My Favorite Mistake

     This is my story. It was supposed to be just a mistake and how I reflected but it kind of turned into "my story." It kind of goes through everything I went through to be placed on probation to going into JJS custody to where I'm at now. It doesn't go too in depth with my family issues but that's not the reason I'm writing this.

One day when I was fifteen years old, my friend told me that after everyone went to sleep I should sneak out and take my moms car. It sounded like a good idea so I agreed. I went to sleep and set an alarm for twelve o'clock. The alarm went off, I got dressed and took the car. I met up with my friend, smoked some weed, had a cigarette, and went to the store. We got some drinks and everything was good till we saw red and blue lights. I pulled over and waited. When the cop approached the car he asked for my license and registration. I took a deep breathe and told the officer that I'm only fifteen. He told me he pulled me over because I didn't have my head lights on. My mom showed up and when they asked if they would take me she said no. 

        I went to DT for three days and got out. When I got drug tested I failed for marijuana and I got put in a day treatment program. I was there for about eight months and just kept failing my UA's. I got a few contempt charges and would only get locked up for about a week. Finally my judge said she had enough and sent me to O&A. I spent about a month in DT then went to O&A for forty-five days. While I was there they did all sorts of assessment and gave my judge a recommendation. They recommended I be sent to a six month program called Blue Hills. I got in a little trouble while I was there and was there for about seven months. I got out and the 4th of July and was doing great. 

        About a week later I used and failed a drug test. It wasn't that bad until I started using a lot again. I started using as if I wasn't being drug tested. I was buying and selling again and before I knew it I was fighting with my step dad. He kicked me out and I stayed with my dad for a few days but he was going to be leaving town again because he's a truck driver. My caseworker made a decision that I should be placed in proctor care since at this time neither of my parent's houses were suitable for me. I was placed in proctor and now I go to Summit High. 

        This reflects who I am because if I had never taken the car out that night I would have never been placed on probation. I wouldn't have the issues I have with my step dad either. I think if I hadn't taken the car out that night I would be living with my family happily. I wouldn't have to have been taken out of my moms home because me and her fiancé would not have issues.


         I think that is my one mistake that I regret the most in my life. My world was turned upside down for one night of being able to drive around in a sweet Audi A4. It reflect who I am because of the environment it surrounded me by and the people I have met. It put me into a lifestyle I never thought I would be apart of. I never thought I would be some who got locked up and went to programs and got drug tested regularly but that one night turned my life into that. I have made mistakes along the way but nothing compares to that night.

My Favorite Mistake

I opened my eyes the day I made not my first major mistake, but my most inspirational.
One day sitting in a controlled facility, surrounded by complete morons, I decided that I wasn't part of the facility norms. I decided to go super AWOL, so I left.

Now don't get me wrong I'm a liable individual who made a mistake. This mistake just happened to be a real bad one. So one day on work crew, I'm out in a place somewhere in Down Town Salt-lake getting ready for the right moment to bean dip out of their.

"now is the perfect chance" I think to myself, not even bothering to think about consequences that hold for me. The staff is busy playing games on his cell phone, I know that their are two exits of the building; one is in the back, and the other is in the front of the place.

I know that this is the easy part of my secret plan. The adrenaline is spurring in the back of my legs, waiting to make me be able to run like hell or put up a good fight. Now or never! My natural instincts tell me, I look around to make sure it's clear, and it is.

I'll slip away unnoticed, into the shadows of the abyss to never be seen by multiple unintelligible beings. I walk to the back, because I know right now if I run it will be to loud.
Opening the door that happened to creak loudly, I through my body out in the horribly heated sun.

I'm running as fast as I can, dodging objects I'm running by, and thinking of one hundred million things at once, at this point I'm heading east. I find myself in an Alleyway, on one side is a building; the other side is a fence with a cherry tree. the Cherri's look so fat and juicy that they look like their going to pop at any second.

here I am stuffing my pockets, enjoying the sweet pleasuring taste of busting atomic cherries when a pit bull scares the living bajeezis out of me. It's barks are deep and full of hate, almost as if saying drop my masters cherries and leave; or die.

I then get to the tracks and ride them to Ogden to pan handle money for the bus, to get to nine hundred north Brigham city. I continued to walk from their to get to Logan Utah. When I eventually get their I spend  three months of my life thinking about what to do.

eventually, I realize if I'm able to do the things I've done; I can do anything that anyone asks of me, and I could either make an excuse or just do what needs to be done. I'd like to thank the class of 2014 for listening to my shortened version of my greatest mistake.

At the end of the story I turned myself in to d.t.

My Favorite Mistake

I know to this day if I hadn't ever tried weed, I wouldn't be able to try to help others to not try it.

Weed is not a bad substance if used in the correct manner, but otherwise it is a drug.  I regret using it.  It wasn't even that great, and it was temporary.  So, I guess what I'm trying to say is that in reality no drugs are good for you.

We can get high off of happiness and we'd be better off, there's no point in drugs.  Life is not one you're supposed to ruin.  

When I was a child I was taken away from my mom who had been an addict to many types of drugs.  She was so deep in it that my 5 siblings and I were taken away from her.

Love comes from the most unexpected people.  I love my mom now, even though we still have issues, no relationship is perfect.  I thought throughout my life how it would be to meet my biological mom, but she was still on drugs when I got the chance in Louisiana.  That made me rethink my decisions, but habits are hard to break.  

I still did drugs until about 3 mothers ago.  I got in trouble after I went on the run from proctor care.  I started again and every time you do it gets worse.  My addiction starts and stops often and since there could possibly have been drug use before I was born, I might have a biological connection to it as well, making it more likely to get addicted to it if I try it.  

I would never recommend weed to anyone, would never have anyone try it at all.  There are things that should have never been found and weed was a plant we didn't need.  Of course it  can be used for good, but otherwise, no.  

Sometimes I wonder if my mom can change now. The more and more you try a substance the worse it gets overtime and the effects it has on your body are not good.  

What I'm trying to say is I haven't learned completely from my mistake yet, but I'm strong enough to say that I hope nobody will ever try to use it for bad, which I most definitely think they will, but I hope this makes them think twice.