My Favorite Mistake

So this story is about one of the best relationship turning into the worst break ups in my life

I woke up  showered to hopefully wake myself up got dressed then decided to get breakfast from sonic I thought I lost my wallet so I was upset but I found it I paid for my food then realized the time I rushed out the door hopped on the bus and headed out for the day little did I know today was going to be the worst day of my life. 

I know I wasn't perfect some of the kids started talking to me today about how my girl was thinking about breaking up with me I just brushed it off like it was nothing. little did I know it was a big something.  I was confronted about how she was planning the break up. Now let me mention I had over a million thoughts rushing through my head After I finally woke up I decided to walk to class.

 I got a 100 on my test that was great I guess I was trying to avoid the inevitable but you can never think about something then it changes someone's mind so I decided to just sit back do my work and hope it was just something they made up but we all no we're that went so finally she was right in front of me I went to hug her she pushed me away gently so I already knew it was coming then those three words I never wanted to here came flowing out of her mouth like a hurricane. Those two heart piercing words came out of her mouth "Were Done"!   My head started to realize the words that came from her lips. I became indulged in frustration furry and sadness she was my world what would I do with out her. 

So I gathered what dignity I had left up off the floor along with my now shattered heart and said "ok just as long as your happy" that's all I care about so I went to another table with the guys talked to Chris trying not to break out in a river of tears and ate my food.  The thought came back like a whiplash but I talked to my friends and they are the definition of true friends they helped me get over it but every day I still have those flash backs of those perfect memories but it's time to lock them away forever but how my mind keeps asking me over and over how can I forget her she was my world but I know it will be ok.  

Like I said something's just aren't meant to be so if you love them set them free make a bad thing turn positive I'll keep ridden on ridden on in to the sunset but this is one thing that is for sure ill ride on with no regrets were to I really don't no all I no is I will rebuild myself and become a better man sometimes we all need a change so now it's time to make a stand I'm gonna take my life change it's course for better don't look back. I'll find someone who can make me happy mamma always said there are plenty of fish in the sea so I'm gonna sail free and find that special fish no matter how big this sea is I'll find that fish for me. 

I know it was a complete mistake trust me I'd take it back I'd go to hell and  back just to win you again I'd give my life to hold you for just one more night oh you have no clue what I would do I understand your gone baby but it drives me crazy just promise me you will never forget us and all the time we spent together all of our laughs I no you felt abandoned but baby you turned me off like the push of a button you like to use those words as a weapon so rid the pictures from your wall and throw them away watch them burn Barry them six feet under and get away as fast as you can but your like the drug I can't stop taken and to you it don't mean nothin but baby to me you were my every thing and more I wanted nothing more than to be the man you wanted me to be but now all that is left is bitter sweet memories.

So maybe this is good for me I realized I need time to find who the true me is then I can truly be happy I guess. I the. Decided to move on I found someone and tried to make it work I guess I'm a failure at relationships I made a commitment to my self to never love again you might ask why and it's because I'm afraid to get hurt and maybe I am a fool for falling for girls but I think I have finally learned that the heart break for you was one more mistake I could have given my heart to someone who could have taken care of it and that's what I am going to do I will never trust someone like you. 

In other words maybe this story can help you in a similar situation with relationships I tend to avoid certain conflict because I don't like drama I hate fighting and I don't like being treated like I'm nothing but dirt. My heart is very delicate imagine glass if it drops or heats or cools to much it cracks well that's like my heart were there was love there is an empty hole. You put one in the chamber  and as I fell you laughed and my heart shattered as if made of glass that will be the last time I trust any one.  The hardest part was to realize she was out of my life what was I going to do I couldn't let them see me cry I'd be the laughing stock of the entire school I decided to wait until I got home I couldn't wait for the last five minutes I ran and grabbed my things and ran out the door for the front tuner station and I started to turn in to a walking fire hydrant my tears soaked my new shirt I was so embarrassed.