My favorite mistake was running away from my last program. As difficult and stressful as it was. I was able to really learn a whole lot about myself and the people I once surrounded myself with.
I was 17, completely unaware of the direction that my life was headed, careless and very fearless when it came to anything, except confrontation.
I was sitting in my fathers huge, lavish home in Pearland, TX with him yelling in my face telling me I was a bitch and would end up an uneducated stripper "just like my mother" , that I "should go ask for an application at "Micheal's Gentlemens Club", the same place my mom sacrificed her self respect to put food on the table as a single mother, when I was 3 years old.
This was the third and last home visit before Judge Noonan would send me to live with him for good in just a few short weeks after returning to my loving Foster home in American Fork. The move was set in stone. There was no going back. Legally.
It was then and there when I made the decision that no matter what, I would not tolerate being treated so anymore. I was burning with anger, hurt and very quiet about it. It was easy for me to hold it in and disappear, as opposed to standing up for myself, being a woman about it, and addressing the problem, finding other alternatives.
Running away taught me many things. Mental, physical, and sexual abuse isn't something that happens to "other" people. Forced overdose, dying then thanking God for another chance doesn't just happen to "other" people. Watching people get blasted, and being at gun point is, as well, more common then many may think. My Favorite Mistake is running away because it opened my eyes. It was a reminder that it's up to me whether I CHOOSE to live that way or not.
Had it not been for this experience, and in a way, blessing, I wouldn't be where I am today. Graduating on time. Getting a job at Vivint. (If they accept my request for an interview lol) Applying to UVU next year. On a hella fast path to success.
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This just goes to show that no matter what your childhood was like or what you parents are like you can be as successful as you want to be its not your parents choice its your life and your in charge of it I think your a beautiful girl with tons of talent and I truly believe in you that you will for sure rise up and be better than both your parents by far and be super successful
Angel,
It sounds like you've been dragged through the gutter! Your story is nuts! I admire you even more! I admire all the things you're striving to do! I wish you the best of luck!
I hope you know how special you are and how loved you really are. Life isn't simple or sweet and kind, it's rutheless and at points very painful. Don't get me wrong, life has good and bad, but I believe that if you have a GOOD ATTITUDE in life then you can do anything. You determine your life and I believe you have demonstrated that a great deal.
I've never ran before, but I've thought about it. I Used to be the same way with my anger. I would just hold it in. It's good that you realize now though that your life can be what you want it to, but it's up to you to make it that way.
It sounds like you've been through hell and back again. I am glad for you that you will be working at VIvint, it should be a blast- I heard from various friends that they pay very well. If you don't have fun, which I think you will have fun, at least you get paid well! Good luck have fun.
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