5 Goals

Each year that passes by I think about what I want to accomplish through out the year and sometimes it's pretty hard to think about the Goals I want to achieve. Recently I have been thinking about goals to change myself and to live my life in a healthy way because I haven't been doing good things in my life that I'm too proud of and I want to be happy and most importantly, make my family happy and proud of me. 

It's been a struggle for me to make a change in my life and to do the things that my program asks me to do. I've been trying for the whole year and some months that I've been in the program to change but sometimes I just think about the year that I've been in the program and I just feel like change isn't in me. I admit, I'm still doing the same things that got me in the trouble in the first place, but I also admit that I am doing way better according to academics. I'm still the same Bryan but a Bryan with some goals in his life.

#1 Better my relationship with my mom. 

I love my mom, I mean who doesn't? My mom has always been there for me through hell and back. All these times that I've been struggling going to programs to programs and Detention, she has always been there no matter if her schedule was busy. Every time that I thought she was at the point that she didn't wanted to deal with me because I wouldn't change and kept doing the same things that got me in trouble she would always squeeze the last drop of hope and faith and feed it to me. Me and my mom really didn't have the best relationship when I was growing up just because I would always be roaming the streets and sometimes won't even come home to sleep under the roof she was providing me. She would always worry about me and every time I would talk to her she would try to tell me advice and but I didn't really listen. That's why I want to better my relationship with my mom. She means the world to me so the best way to show her that I do is to better my relationship, show her that I appreciate what she has done for me, and most importantly that I love her.

#2 Staying sober.

I admit, I really can't stop smoking weed and at some point I think that I told myself that I loved weed and I would never stop smoking it. I am a pretty selfish guy to be honest. What ever I want I will get it no matter what I will try my hardest to get my hands on my craving. But now that I got my head a little clearer now, I am ashamed of myself because after the few years that I'm been in the system I noticed that I'm not the only one that's suffering, my loved ones are also with me suffering. I could have stopped my bad habits long time ago but I was too selfish to do so. But now, to this day, I have doing good just for my family's sake and to make my mom proud of me. To show her that I'm trying to change and live my life in a healthy way physically and mentally. To show her that I want something in life and my future. 

#3 stay in school 

School has been a real struggle in my life to be honest. I hated school when ever since I started the 7th grade. I hated all the classes that I had, the teachers, and the real struggle waking up and actually stepping in to school. I had a lot of friends during that time and it would just be hard for me to actually tell myself to go to class and do the work. I wouldn't go to class because every time I would be with my friends there would always be something to do and I would fall into peer pressure. School was the thing that I would not look into that much but I knew I was doing something bad but at that time I didn't really think about it and didn't think about the consequences that I would suffer in the future. I would always tell myself that I will make up the work the next day but then again, I fell in peer pressure. 

Ever since I got in the system I started getting credits and started going to school because I had to go to school and do good so I guess I can thank the system for that. 

#4 catch up on my credits

I have been trying so hard to graduate. I don't really care how long it takes for me to graduate as long as I just walk through that line with other graduates or even just mainly graduate. I've Been working so hard to catch up on these credits that I have and I've been striving to do the work I had to do to earn the credits. I just can't wait till that day comes. 

#5 live independently 

I have been growing up under the "roof" of the system and the eyes of them too. Now that I'm a little older now and have some what of being independent. I think that I am ready to take it to the next step and live independent. I think it will be good for me because I feel I need to take on responsibilities now that I'm growing up and starting to grow up as a man. 

I feel like if I take on responsibilities It will make me stay out of trouble. It will also give me some motivation once I start working and getting my own money. 

Trends that Should Die with 2014

Rappers that should die with the year of 2014

I really like rap and hip hop but I think artist now a days aren't really what they call "rappers".

I feel like "rappers" aren't really rappers because they are not making real music and are making songs that say the same thing. How much money they make, how many women they get, how many females want them, how "hot" they are, how much ice they have on. 

Rappers now a days make the stupidest songs and then next thing you hear them say is that they are the realist rapper out there and how hard they have been working.

  Chief keef

I think chief keef should die with the year with the year if 2014. Chief Keef doesn't have the best music out there and most of his songs you can barley understand what he is trying to say on his songs. 

Nicki Manaj 

Nicki is pretty sexy if you ask me, but only if she was only real. Lol 

I think Nicki sounds like a possessed demon when I listen to her on the radio, with her weird deep voice she makes. It's scary and not cool. 

Juicy J

I think J is old news and should die with the year of 2014. I think he's old news and his new music is not that good anymore compared when he was in the three6mafia. 

Iggy Izalea 

I think Iggy should die with the year 2014 because she is pretty bad at rapping and I wouldn't consider her the best hip hop artist. My opinion on Iggy is that her music she makes is crappy 

Do/Don't Essay

Let me tell you the best kept secret about listening to music. It's easy if you really pay attention to the music and the lyrics the singer or rapper are saying. I've noticed that Some people listen to music just because of the way it sounds or because they like the singer/rapper.

If you really want to enjoy the music you are listening to, all you have to do is open your ears and feel the vibe of the Music.

Don't: Pick a random song out of your library Just because you want to feed your ears noises to listen to. If you just pick a random song, it's more likely that you're going to get tired of the song and you won't really feel the vibe of the singer/rapper.  

Do: try to pick a song that you think would fit your mood or the emotion your are feeling.

If you are feeling sad, you are most likely to choose a song that is slow and have soft tunes with slow lyrics. If you are mad, you might pick a song that has loud crazy beats. Try to find something that you are most likely to enjoy and would think fits how you're feeling at the moment.

Don't: if you find a song that you really absolutely love, don't try and listen to it over and over again. Replaying songs over and over again will make you not want to listen to it again or you will get bored of it. Sometimes those kind of songs are the ones you should keep in your playlist.

Do: If you are really interested in the artist, try and look up the rest of the singer/rapper's songs and check them out to see what kind of artist he/she is, and to see what the artist mostly talks about in his/her lyrics. It's sometimes interesting to see And learn about their background.

Don't: DON'T listen to your music out loud when there is a crowd around. Sometimes the people won't feel the same way as you and might think your a fruity dude. Sometimes if you listen to your music out loud and your music is about your hood, you might find yourself trouble. Lol

Do: The best place to listen to music is while taking a nice hot shower. Turn your music out loud in the shower ,sing your lungs out, and enjoy it!