Do/Don't Essay

 Don't take another mans seat it will piss them off Open the door for a girl offer her your seat.

Never on the first day of high school try to fit in with popular kids. Go for the kids that look like outcasts those groups are easy going never forget a hackey sack kids join in all the time. Dont

 forget to brush your hair don't forget to shower and don't wear to much spray. Don't think that the first girl who talks to you is flirting she is probably just being nice. Don't go for the first girl you see that you think is cute either because you will most likely regret it there's probably a cuter one that comes along never make your self look hard it's kinda stupid just be very mellow and don't flip out over stupid stuff don't try to be someone your not just be you and eventually you will fit in to some were. I think people are just to worried about what other people are going to say about there appearance the best advice I could give someone is if there happy with there appearance then nothing else matters. People who judge are the worst people they get happy from you getting upset. Sometimes they don't understand the name calling probably hurts the worst but  usually it's trying to fit in that sucks I feel if your you that's all you can be don't be a thug if your not don't be a anything if your not stay true to you Say you really like certain music someone else says they hate your music well Blair it till yours ears bleed I think it's how you look at it I think it is all about how your prospective on it is.

For example I was hiding behind a skater look because I was scared as hell of the judgement but when I put those boots and pants on I feel like myself again and I think that's all that matters is that you stay true to yourself I was always so worried about how I needed to fit in what I needed to buy to look like everybody else when really all I like is my boots jeans and a shirt I feel very comfortable in my clothes now I don't have to sag my pants I'm comfortable respected happy and don't take crap from anyone and my be you will laugh at the way I live but I'd rather go back to my emery county roots than to be someone I'm not yes I am country I do have long hair country isn't about the short hair it's about workin hard bailin hay when needed a lot of muddin four wheel drives gun racks bucks in the bed of the old trucks and Bon fires that's my life wake up at 5:00 with the sun go to work all day five days a week then the weekends mud puddles boots friends girls in the daisy dukes and lots of music little guitar playin campin go out smellin like a fire best smell in the world haha well if you can't live that way I don't no a better one to live I have lived a variety of lifestyles skater hippy thug you name it but I found I fit in right here with the country it makes me happy and its time to be me that's one thing I miss about home is it was laid back every one new you you weren't a number in the society you were family to everyone there is no place I'd rather be than down home in emery county you may think I'm weird but I'll tell you what there's nothin better than watchin a country sunset or walkin on the river bank  ha I was right people did go and start talkin bout how I "changed" naw man I didn't change I just went back to how I have always been. it all started September 23 1995 born in slc raised in nephi ut until about seven moved to vernal until I turned 13 moved to another small town At the age of fifteen ha emery county home of the Spartans rednecks and rodeo hell that was the best man every weekend me and my friends hit the desert for the weekend light the bomb fire kick back hell man if you don't no bout that then your really missin out I guess I just went back to the real me I was always worried about how to fit in turns out country is all I really no now maybe y'all don't no bout that life but it's real fun nothin like huntin and fishin runnin through the river with friends taken the truck and four wheelers through the river mud up to the doors  throw it in four low in the old chev and slowly crawl right on through Man that's one thing I never regret is being me I have turned into one good guy maybe someone can accept all of this for who I really am haha I'm sure someday I'm very satisfied with who I am it hurt today this girl callin me fake ha you no why I tried to fit in and it didn't get me anywhere so I start bein me naw sweet heart make sure you no who you are before you point that dirty finger of yours at me. That's another thing I "Hate" people who are two faced sayin that don't fit you you are fake  some times I wanna look at them and say your one to talk go look in the mirror clean your face up and shut the hell up I'm happy as me and I ain't hiding no more so  Don't tell me how to live I'm me that's who I will always be and you can't change that so please don't judge but Even if you do it doesn't hurt me ha it only shows your true colors and probably your insecurities to so I don't really no it's all about how you think about it If you were in the other persons shoes and had to deal with what there dealing with don't treat them poorly because they might be the only person when you have your breakdown that will listen that's one quality I do have I'm a friend a shoulder to cry on and I'm always there some people claim to be and there not for example I rolled my truck about a year ago ya I was high I was bein stupid but the point is I called the one person who was at my house I thought he would come my "best friend" ya right he said he was to tired so I said ok I called my dad at this time dad was workin non stop graveyards he was runnin on an hour of sleep but he started the old truck came and picked my dumb self up from buckhorn draw didn't scream just said are you ok son he kept asking if I was hurt over and over I said I was just tired but dad drove me another 40 miles to price hospital paid for my Ex Rays and made us I was ok the next day we go up and went out to get my truck it's an old truck but it was fine just had a dent in the side haha we pulled it up flipped it over started right up we went home fixed the truck dad said don't worry bout payin me back just make sure your ok and that  meant most to me dad never got mad we fixed the truck up got all the dents out made it better than it was before I rolled it we stayed up the next few nights he was off work we made the truck run real good I think that's one thing I can say about my dad no matter how much trouble I'm in he always helps me out never disowned me he has always had my back I am so glad I have him ha he isn't a millionaire but he makes sure we have everything we need no matter what  I look up to him he's always worked his butt off for our family and has never taken a short cut I think the example my dad has set for me is what I really strive to be is a man that has valuable skills to help himself to succeed. No matter what job I get if I get laid off I have skills to succeed into another career most kids give up after so long because they don't think they can succeed so instead of driving on and trying they just give up I'm great full that I'm not like that If the Going gets tough buckle up and keep Going Cause there is sure to be smoother sailing on the way I've  thought sometimes that it would just be easier to give up on things but if I give up then I loose out on what might be my future whether it be a girl or a job so I just need to drive on there is always opportunity for me If I keep moving on I've made leaps and bounds I used to be so deep in that hole I didn't see the end of the tunnel now I'm on track to graduate my family is on my side 100% and so are all my friends and when I'm done you bet your ass I'm goin muddin haha desert life to live 77 Chevy 6" Inch lift Supers swampers with 4 twelve inch subs cruising through my small town ha when I roll through they will no I'm throwing a party man I may be country but I no how to party haha  until you have experienced that big Bon fire those 12 gauge shotguns shooting gallon jugs just to watch them explode man just talkin bout it makes me get excited Two things you can count on from me one I'm always there two you get stuck in that truck I'll pull ha out after I finish laughing my guts out cause you bragged up your truck haha so I think I'm Johnny cash I think I'm willie Nelson I think I'm hank Williams I thing I'm Waylon Jennings I keep it country man haha make sure before you act up you make sure your Respecting the women That's one thing I hate is you decide to make a mistake then when she finds out you whine about it begging for forgiveness one more chance wa wa wa  quite cryin man up treat a women with respect she isn't your dam rug she ain't your dog if you hurt her she ain't gonna wanna just here your apology and call it good friend cause if you apologize make sure you mean it prove it to her of just by words but by your actions they don't like a whining baby as there boy friend so shut up man up and make sure you respect your women maybe she will love you more if ha show her that you love her sure it's sometimes hard but It's not meant to be easy man I takes two to tango  I was taught if a women hits your you either 1 stand there and take it or 2 run like hell. Any man who hits a women deserves to be knocked out and that's how I feel same with cheaters man I hate them all well that's all my do's and donts    

If I Could Change the World

   If I could get rid of three things it would be heartache, cheaters, and drug attics

People who are cheaters and I mean in relationships  it seems that teens these days only care about one thing well at least negus I'm not saying I'm not one but I have changes 

D they never think about how a girl feels when they cheat on her or just use her for there own personal gain Witch really pisses me off those girls go home and cry and for what some lousy relationship with a kid who doesn't think About anyone but himself But what he doesn't realize is her way to vent might be To cut 

The thing is parents don't listen to there kids so they don't no why there cutting because they never take the time to ask what's really happening. 

I know a boy all he wanted was his moms love he tried so hard it was months after head even locked up no letters no phone call not a happy bday he try's to hide behind that smile that he paints on everyday Hiding behind tear filled eyes his only escape is sleep and school hoping one day the mom he once new will finally come through on her end of the promise.

 He remembers  going to the office that day it was a Thursday  his counselor said your mom called He  couldn't believe it He thought he was joking around with him. He  was serious mom was happy to talk to him but He  new it was to good to be true.

The first thing He said is are you sober she didn't answer  but he didn't care at that point he wanted to see her so  the forgiving person he is his  counselor set up an appointment with her.  

It was obvious she was going to stand her son up you no the sad part is he actually Believed she changed but he new that was a long shot to believe in her if he only could change one thing it would be his mom actually following through with her promises those days were she isn't there how do I no she is ok I hate not knowing I believe moms need to be moms and not hurt there kids emotionally. I think that the only reason I'm still alive is because my dad has always been by my side. He has been there through thick and thin and has never left. So be glad you have someone there for you I thank god that I do.  The next Thursday she Showed Up but with the smell and look of cheap perfume and meth on her breath and the size and form of a twig the beautiful mom I once new was now a walking skeleton with skin she thinks I don't no but mom I no and I'm ashamed that you have become the women I never could of imagined. I hate this it's starting to tear me apart so I dig deep in my heart for the strength to forgive but I feel as if I cant Forgive her does that meaning a bad person dam drugs really have torn us apart she is not the same she looks like a skeleton with skin it's quit scary really

My Favorite Mistake

So this story is about one of the best relationship turning into the worst break ups in my life

I woke up  showered to hopefully wake myself up got dressed then decided to get breakfast from sonic I thought I lost my wallet so I was upset but I found it I paid for my food then realized the time I rushed out the door hopped on the bus and headed out for the day little did I know today was going to be the worst day of my life. 

I know I wasn't perfect some of the kids started talking to me today about how my girl was thinking about breaking up with me I just brushed it off like it was nothing. little did I know it was a big something.  I was confronted about how she was planning the break up. Now let me mention I had over a million thoughts rushing through my head After I finally woke up I decided to walk to class.

 I got a 100 on my test that was great I guess I was trying to avoid the inevitable but you can never think about something then it changes someone's mind so I decided to just sit back do my work and hope it was just something they made up but we all no we're that went so finally she was right in front of me I went to hug her she pushed me away gently so I already knew it was coming then those three words I never wanted to here came flowing out of her mouth like a hurricane. Those two heart piercing words came out of her mouth "Were Done"!   My head started to realize the words that came from her lips. I became indulged in frustration furry and sadness she was my world what would I do with out her. 

So I gathered what dignity I had left up off the floor along with my now shattered heart and said "ok just as long as your happy" that's all I care about so I went to another table with the guys talked to Chris trying not to break out in a river of tears and ate my food.  The thought came back like a whiplash but I talked to my friends and they are the definition of true friends they helped me get over it but every day I still have those flash backs of those perfect memories but it's time to lock them away forever but how my mind keeps asking me over and over how can I forget her she was my world but I know it will be ok.  

Like I said something's just aren't meant to be so if you love them set them free make a bad thing turn positive I'll keep ridden on ridden on in to the sunset but this is one thing that is for sure ill ride on with no regrets were to I really don't no all I no is I will rebuild myself and become a better man sometimes we all need a change so now it's time to make a stand I'm gonna take my life change it's course for better don't look back. I'll find someone who can make me happy mamma always said there are plenty of fish in the sea so I'm gonna sail free and find that special fish no matter how big this sea is I'll find that fish for me. 

I know it was a complete mistake trust me I'd take it back I'd go to hell and  back just to win you again I'd give my life to hold you for just one more night oh you have no clue what I would do I understand your gone baby but it drives me crazy just promise me you will never forget us and all the time we spent together all of our laughs I no you felt abandoned but baby you turned me off like the push of a button you like to use those words as a weapon so rid the pictures from your wall and throw them away watch them burn Barry them six feet under and get away as fast as you can but your like the drug I can't stop taken and to you it don't mean nothin but baby to me you were my every thing and more I wanted nothing more than to be the man you wanted me to be but now all that is left is bitter sweet memories.

So maybe this is good for me I realized I need time to find who the true me is then I can truly be happy I guess. I the. Decided to move on I found someone and tried to make it work I guess I'm a failure at relationships I made a commitment to my self to never love again you might ask why and it's because I'm afraid to get hurt and maybe I am a fool for falling for girls but I think I have finally learned that the heart break for you was one more mistake I could have given my heart to someone who could have taken care of it and that's what I am going to do I will never trust someone like you. 

In other words maybe this story can help you in a similar situation with relationships I tend to avoid certain conflict because I don't like drama I hate fighting and I don't like being treated like I'm nothing but dirt. My heart is very delicate imagine glass if it drops or heats or cools to much it cracks well that's like my heart were there was love there is an empty hole. You put one in the chamber  and as I fell you laughed and my heart shattered as if made of glass that will be the last time I trust any one.  The hardest part was to realize she was out of my life what was I going to do I couldn't let them see me cry I'd be the laughing stock of the entire school I decided to wait until I got home I couldn't wait for the last five minutes I ran and grabbed my things and ran out the door for the front tuner station and I started to turn in to a walking fire hydrant my tears soaked my new shirt I was so embarrassed.