Goals have helped me out a lot in life so far. I use to be someone no one could stand! All I cared about was sex and drugs. I was someone no one wants to be. With goals I have pulled myself out of that life and into a new way of living. At the moment..life's weird. I have no friends and my family's left me. So I'm pretty lonely. Ever since I've dropped my old friends I've been having a hard time getting new ones. Talking in general is heart stopping. I'm scared I'll get close to someone whom I could call family, than them just leave. I need some way to pull me out of this awkward funk!
Goals:
#1. Openly be myself.
Maybe someone will like the new me. So be weird and happy about it! I want someone to except me for me. Not for who they want me to be.
#2. Be more social.
Sure it's scary to talk to people, but you won't make friends without talking. I want to be able to share feelings and pains with someone else. Maybe they'll help.
#3. Take the risk!
Like I've said, talking is scary. It is because people may laugh at me and turn me down and not want to except me. But I won't know who will except me till I try. So try!
#4. Learn to except myself.
No one is going to talk to me if I won't talk to me. If I show hate towards myself and disrespect myself, it will show that I can't love and respect them. Plus, it's just good to love your self. :)
#5. Find a family..
This is my biggest goal. I don't want to have only friends to rely on. I want a place to go home to. I want to hug someone I could call Mom or Dad. I want a place to call home. This is my biggest goal ever!
I know that once I reach my goals, I will be happier with myself. These are most important to me. Yes sobriety is very important. It's just not my biggest problem anymore. If I want a family, I have to follow through with these goals. Sure I'm scared, and yes it's hard. But if I made it this far, I could go farther!!!
