Friday, November 21, 2014

Do/Don't Essay

Let me tell you the best-kept secret of life. It's very simple and easy. And these do's and don't's will help you. First thing that is needed to be warned is; this secret may bring extreme happiness, euphoria, and lots of fun. The second is; you will need to know that you are what makes it go. You are the key to all of this secret. It is in you!

Don't; put off the hard stuff. Get it done already, Have fun, and be happy! In your mind,  you should think what's hardest is going to take the longest. The hard stuff is only going to become Harder the longer it sits there.

do; try to do a good job. Make sure your working smarter then the task at hand, it helps. You should always be doing your best and working hard but smart at the same time. The dumber you work the harder you work but not in a good way!

Don't; lean on others be cause when they fall you will fall with them. Be independent and reliable. Fight your own battles. Remember that you are the only one who can be completely reliable.

Don't; have griefs over stuff you can't control. It will only be harder on yourself if you keep this up. If this happens to you just move on. Grieving dose not help you move forward. It would only pull you backwards.

Do; keep a good attitude and a look on life that's positive. Do that and you won't want to be anything but the best you can be. It really helps you live with your self.


this stuff will help you with the life you live.     

Do/Don't Essay

let me tell you the best kept secret about the future, the future is consistently changing, there're multiple roads that are possible, these are reflections of our choices. Some roads look dark and dank while others look more sweet and easy.

  There are some major differences in these roads, like for instance look at our electronic advantages. We as individuals crafted the simplest yet the most complex instrument in our society, the satellite. The complexity of the satellite alone gave birth to the future of our nation.

when people doubt that they will never have another option to do anything with them selfs, they have usually been taking the easy way out. Mass majority of the people who are successful, tried harder than anyone, trying to walk the tight rope.
   
so when you ask "what's the secret?" The secret is as old as the hills, you are the secret for the future. One individual can change the future of our nation, for instance look at the 3d printer. one person in his basement probably created That, now we don't even know if our society is even ready For that kind of electronic advancement.

  Do: give life your fullest efforts, it may seem like life is not worth it but what you don't know is that's only in the short term affect. Life is a rock if you decide to drop in the water to sink, the ripples are the effects and they destroy everything that is calm and soothing. 

don't: let anyone tell you that your future is pointless, you don't know what your capable of doing with your life's, you only know what roots helped you craft your tree of life. 

do: choose any opportunity that will allow you to be more successful an others to be helped to be successful. Us as youth are to be one day grown up and all the people that we know will be long gone away either to death or different states. So why not craft your future with others.

don't: give up when you walk the tight rope and fall, get back up and try again because once you do, you'll get the hang of it. life always gets easier even when your walking that dark, Dank road that has thorns and no path, theirs always a light ahead.


in conclusion our future and life of our society depends on our youth to change what Is wrong With everything and anything that has technical difficulties. 

Monday, November 3, 2014

If I Could Change the World

If I could change the world I would get rid of pennies, breakup songs, and Coca-Cola. I know that these sound really weird but I have my reasons.

I want to get rid of penny because it costs more to make the penny than it's actually worth. It makes me really mad. I think the world can definitely go without pennies.  Everything would get rounded to the nearest five cents.

I want to get rid of breakup songs because they're so stupid. I could care less about your breakups Taylor Swift, find someone who cares. I think your hot and I love your music that doesn't deal with your breakups.

I really hate Coke. It is disgusting!! Pepsi products are so much better. The taste, the smell, the color, and the commercials, are more appealing

These are the things I want to get rid of. I know that these are really weird things to hate but I hate them. I want them to just disappear my life would be so much better if these things were gone.

Friday, October 31, 2014

If I Could Change the World

if I could change the world I'd get rid of #1.Drugs- specifically heroine, tobacco, alcohol, and marijuana, #2. Guns, #3. Pornography.


I would get rid of the above drugs because those were the drugs my mom was on while I was still inside of her, and that both her and my dad were addicted to that lead my mom to be in and out of jails, and the next two things...


I would get rid of guns, because my dad when addicted to the above drugs mainly heroine; armed robbed a bank, and got sent to prison for almost seven years.

I would get rid of pornography because of the nature of it, and the fact that in porn it is only about male dominance over women, demeaning females, and all sort of weird sexual perversions. Pornography is just a devilish means of a way for an individual to indulge and delve into their most sickest fantasies, and more than likely end up losing control.
AND IT TENDS TO BE QUITE ADDICTIVE!!! 

If I Could Change the World

If I could change the world I would get rid of airplanes, age of consent,and alcohol. I know that this list is weird but I have very good reasons.     

       The reason that I would get rid of airplanes is cause it's the way that my mom left me the first time. I remember my mom had packed her stuff in the middle of the night so that she could get out without having to deal with my tears. My grandma raced to the airport to try and catch her before she left,when we got there she was already gone.I have never really been able to block that all the way out.


I would get rid of the age of consent is because I lost the person I cared about most over this stupid law,the only guy that I ever really cared about he was my world,I loved him. He cared about me more than anything and I trusted him. But then he was placed in my program and they refused to let us be together because I was only thirteen and he was sixteen, then fourteen and seventeen. We broke the rules over and over again so that we could be together,after about a year of that they said that they were sending us both to group homes. They didn't that time, but a few times after that they sent him away and I haven't seen him since. It tore me apart . I will never let myself be that vulnerable again.He was my everything I would do anything to be with him again. I believed that hints would always be ok when I had him. I miss him so much we did everything for each other, he made me feel like I was irreplaceable and loved, but because of this stupid law I can't even know where he Is. This is why I would get rid of the age of consent law!



     Lat but not least I would sadly get rid of alcohol. I would get rid of alcohol because it has messed up me and my mother,it pulled her in when she was a teenager and it did the same thing to me and it sure did mess up things. Don't get me wrong I love having fun but I don't like having my family decide that I'm not worth it Because I would always come home late and drunk, practically a repeat of my mother and I don't want to follow in her footsteps.  

If I Could Change the World

If I could change the world I would get rid of fighting, all the violence, and all the drugs and cigarettes. I have my reasons why I would get rid of this stuff and I'm about to tell you about part of my life. So here you go this is why I would get rid of this stuff.

So why I would get rid of fighting is because I grew up around fighting. So I would get rid of it because I think that if I didn't grow up around it that I wouldn't be in Procter right now so
 that's why I would get rid of fighting. It would make most kids that are in Procter not be there.

Second I would get rid of all the violence because most people in jail wouldn't Be there because their in there for disorderly conduct. My brothers used to pick on me so I would get rid of that violence because it wouldn't have put all the stress on my mom. I grew up with it so I'm used to it but my mom doesn't need all the stress so that's why I would get rid of violence.

Last but not least I think this is the most important thing. I would get rid of weed and cigarettes. Why I would get rid of drugs is because people are messing up there life just smoked get when they could be out hanging with there friends not doing all the drugs.

Why I would get rid of cigarettes is because it makes people die faster and if they were never invented I probably would have my dad for many more years then what I got. I wouldn't have half the tickets I have. So I would get rid of cigarettes for good because now I'm always around it and I'm done with those.


So that is why would get rid of fighting, all the violence, all the drugs and cigarettes.  So this is my way. Of saying that if your doing any kind of drugs bulling people smaller than you to stop because I grew up with that and I went in to Procter. I don't wish this for anyone because it sucks.

If I Could Change the World

If I could change the world I would get rid of jelly, butter, and skim milk. 

One reason why I would get rid of jelly is because it makes peanut butter taste gross, and it looks like purple blood. It reminds me of my friend, she eat jelly with everything...well almost everything. I always thought jelly was a weird invention that was made by man kind, but it made my friend happy,so I'm glad it was made, but if you want real fruit eat real fruit they're so much better for you, jelly is just sugar no real fruits are in it, so eat real fruit.  

I would also get rid of butter, why? Because it's fattening for you. Another reason is because it has no flavor, it's bland. I think butter is gross and unnaturally made. I hate it when people use to much of it on food and in the food. Butter reminds me of my foster mom she uses it in and on everything she makes us, it's straight up freaking nasty, and I wish she would cut back a little. 

Another thing I would get rid of is skim milk, because it's also gross it makes me sick when people drink it. It's like watching someone eat liquid ice cream, but watered down...really watered down. Skim milk I think is a disgrace to milk, almost like a sin to milk. Skim milk should be gone off the face of the earth and ever be made again, and if anybody wants to drink it then they'll have to resort to regular milk or never drink milk again. Or if you want to drink milk, drink a little bit of milk and also drink some water to, about the same amount of both. That's something everybody can do your still getting milk but your also get the water you need at the same time too.


The reason why I would get rid of these things is because I would like to see people be a little healthier, and not use fatting subtenses in their food. Also to help prevent type 2 diabetes, and obesity, because so many families loss family members because of these things. Families should not loss family members to cancer.  

If I Could Change the World

If I could change the world I would get rid of rap, candy,and ice cream

Reasons why I would get rid of rap is because it's disrespectful to girls. I have been raised to show respect to other especially toward girls. I don't like rap because i feel like it say girls are only meant to be toys for pleasuring men. I thing rap is disgusting and we need to show others respect not only to girls.

I Would take get ride of candy because, I hate how I eat candy I get sick and I don't have to eat a lot, I don't like when it gets stuck between my teen and that there's some that have to much sugar on them.

I hate ice cream when I eat it my teeth hurt and the cold bothers me. I hate eating it my teach hurt all the time and I didn't think it was the ice cream so I went to the Dentist and they said I had thong wrong with my teeth. I hate how sensitive my teach are to ice cream. I hate the cold because when I eat to much I get a brain freeze and both my head and teach hurt. My step dad loves brain freezes when he has one he takes the biggest bate of ice cream he can while he has a brain freeze. I hate it because when I think it's gone I take a bite and it comes back And I just want to cry.  


If this make my world better I would do it in a heart beat and I wouldn't regret it for one second.

If I Could Change the World

   If I could get rid of three things it would be heartache, cheaters, and drug attics
People who are cheaters and I mean in relationships  it seems that teens these days only care about one thing well at least negus I'm not saying I'm not one but I have changes 
D they never think about how a girl feels when they cheat on her or just use her for there own personal gain Witch really pisses me off those girls go home and cry and for what some lousy relationship with a kid who doesn't think About anyone but himself But what he doesn't realize is her way to vent might be To cut 

The thing is parents don't listen to there kids so they don't no why there cutting because they never take the time to ask what's really happening. 

I know a boy all he wanted was his moms love he tried so hard it was months after head even locked up no letters no phone call not a happy bday he try's to hide behind that smile that he paints on everyday Hiding behind tear filled eyes his only escape is sleep and school hoping one day the mom he once new will finally come through on her end of the promise.

 He remembers  going to the office that day it was a Thursday  his counselor said your mom called He  couldn't believe it He thought he was joking around with him. He  was serious mom was happy to talk to him but He  new it was to good to be true.

The first thing He said is are you sober she didn't answer  but he didn't care at that point he wanted to see her so  the forgiving person he is his  counselor set up an appointment with her.  


It was obvious she was going to stand her son up you no the sad part is he actually Believed she changed but he new that was a long shot to believe in her if he only could change one thing it would be his mom actually following through with her promises those days were she isn't there how do I no she is ok I hate not knowing I believe moms need to be moms and not hurt there kids emotionally. I think that the only reason I'm still alive is because my dad has always been by my side. He has been there through thick and thin and has never left. So be glad you have someone there for you I thank god that I do.  The next Thursday she Showed Up but with the smell and look of cheap perfume and meth on her breath and the size and form of a twig the beautiful mom I once new was now a walking skeleton with skin she thinks I don't no but mom I no and I'm ashamed that you have become the women I never could of imagined. I hate this it's starting to tear me apart so I dig deep in my heart for the strength to forgive but I feel as if I cant Forgive her does that meaning a bad person dam drugs really have torn us apart she is not the same she looks like a skeleton with skin it's quit scary really

If I Could Change the World

If I could change the world I would get rid of darkness, get rid of scars, and I would get rid of girlfriends.

First of all I would get rid of darkness. Why? Because with darkness surrounding the world of someone who has no reason to live. It only makes them want to jump of that bridge and cause more pain to themselves one last time, to pull the trigger, drown themselves, drug themselves, or to starve to death. It is the source of all pain and it causes people to lose hope. Then you got the evil that lurks in dark that looks to control everything by fear. 

I'd then get rid of scars because they are physical reminders of what has happened to you. They remind people of all of the shit that they've been through for better or worse. It leaves the pain in their head and on their emotions. It glorifies that they've survived something that somebody else didn't even live through. It attracts unwanted attention from other people who don't know what has happened to you. You don't want to have to tell them what happened to you. It also makes me sad when I see people cutting them selves and the scars that are left behind the sadness is so great that I want to cry. Coming from me and the fact that I don't ever cry says a lot. Scars also make me get pissed off when I get them but not physical scars. It's the emotional scars that piss me off they make me want to get very, very, very violent, but I remind myself about what happened to me to get these scars and I get really sad. Some days I don't want to wake up, don't want to go on, don't want to see the light. It's so hard for me to deal with this life when I feel the scars inside, outside, and see them.

The final thing that I would get rid of is girlfriends/boyfriends. Some people cheat on them and break their hearts, then they go into depression and kill themselves. Some people ,who can't get girlfriends, who would be better off then those disease ridden "people" that they are with aren't cool enough or "hot" enough to go out with them. People are evil sometimes. I have seen people ruin their lives to be cool, popular, to get the "girl", the "boy", or to get "the money". 

In conclusion, I would say that these 3 things I would remove from the world. And yes I have a BIG BLACK CLOUD over my head. But I can't deny the truth. This is the truth, sometimes. Some days the truth about the world hits me in the face, but I learn to deal with it. But with these things gone I could have more faith in the human race and my self. If only the world was perfect and safe. If only people were not so desperate about their reputation being up to the standards of other people. 


P.S.- If you are having a hard time,and like metal/scream'o watch this music video, The Amity Affliction- "don't lean on me"

Tuesday, October 28, 2014

If I Could Change the World

If I could change the world I'd get rid of Death, meth, and the government . I know this sounds like a weird list, but I have my reasons.
first I'd get rid of death. When I was little I thought death was unreal I felt like I'd live forever, I found out that's not reality. Last June my mom passed away and  Three weeks later one of my best friends also passed away. When my mom passed away that's when it really hit me I was in proctor care at the time. Even though it's been over a year, I still blame myself for getting locked up and not being there for her through tough times. I miss her so much and honestly I can't wait to die so I can be with her and give her a hug again.
the second thing I would get rid of in the world is meth. It has caused my life chaos since The day I was born.  it has caused me too lose some of my truest homies, it has torn my family apart Since I can remember. it is a cheap high and Easily available anywhere you are but is highly addictive and tears your body up And It's one of those drugs you think is super bad until you do it then you okay the drug with yourself and that is a major problem with it.
            

the third thing I would get rid of is The government. I feel like the government making laws does make us more safe, but also takes away more and more of our freedom.  every law that gets passed Makes our world a little more crazy. I think the government is really messing up our country and I believe we as a country would be better off with no government and do everything's ourselves. 

If I Could Change the World

If I could change the world I'd get rid of Mc. Donald's, books, and the color red. I know this sounds like a weird list, but I have my reasons. This list means nothing to me I don't like any of these things and that's why I'd get rid of this stuff. I hate looking at these things It makes me mad.

First, I'd get rid of Mc. Donald's because their food I'd discussing. I have so many memories with my mom and sisters at a lot of Mc. Donald's. My mom would always take me and my sisters there to eat and so they could get a kids meal. I hate driving past them because then my thoughts automatically go back to my mom and my sisters. If I could I'd burn them all down because they make me have sad memories and I don't want the stress.

I would also get rid of books-for two reasons. One, I hate reading. I don't like taking up my time to read a book that I don't even like in the end. The second reason is cause every time I try to find a good book I NEVER Can!! I think that books are all stupid because they take a long time to read and I am a slow reader so therefore I don't like books at all. 

Finally I would get rid of the color red. I'm not part of a gang I just don't like the color. It reminds me of death. I don't like it because the last time it was my favorite color my sister died. I'm not saying that was the reason she died but it brings me horrible memories So I don't like red. The definition of red to me is, evil! I don't like it because when I see the color it Almost brings me to tears. My sister was little and we were close. Every time I see red I can only look at it for a few seconds before bursting into tears. The last picture we took was her wearing a red and black dress. 


So to make my world a lot better, I'd get rid of Mc. Donald's, books, and the color red. They all apply to me as past stuff and I feel they should stay there because then I wouldn't have to stress and hurt more than I already do.